i think i'm sorta worried next year cause of Os and stuff. but really, i think going back to school will be cool. at least i won't be stuck at home so much :D
and if you don't get the chance to msg that often, i'll call you then, giggly ;)
[edit] werewolves. hahaha. drips with irony. [/edit]
Monday, December 29, 2008 5:23 pm
haha. okay i am feeling high? not exactly going to touch the stars material, but i'm confident of skyscraper. lols
ok maybe i'm not sure how far on top of the world i am.
Saturday, December 27, 2008 11:12 pm
what the fuck la. stupid fucking vicious cycle. ask and ask and ask and ask. tell and tell and tell and tell. wait and wait and wait and wait.
whatheshit am i supposed to do?
Thursday, December 25, 2008 9:44 pm
it's true and i have to admit that i've never felt anything like it; words can't describe and there ain't no meds to prescibe.
i'm positive that it feels good, but as i said, if this were a test, words would be like blank answers.
life's a balance and it follows the rules. i think i feel great, but the same can't be said for the stakes.
i don't think i've been so happy in such a long time, but what am i to do when i don't want to lie to myself or you?
Wednesday, December 24, 2008 10:41 pm
hahahaha. merry christmas to everyone who reads this :D i'm one hour and 18 mins early. hahahahaha. have a great christmas, world!
the perfect words never crossed my mind, cause there was nothing in there but you. i felt every ounce of me screaming out but the sound was trapped deep in me.
in the confusion and the aftermath you are my signal of fire.
Thursday, December 18, 2008 2:57 pm
hahaho. i have no idea. you tell me?
Wednesday, December 17, 2008 9:26 pm
i will not let myself be mood-swingy.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008 8:35 pm
rah. if only you could tell yourself that you are happy and thing's are going great. bah i'm a great liar. so technically i can't lie to myself.
great!
Saturday, December 13, 2008 5:34 pm
train
the line moves, it's hand scratching the surface of gold. red flashes, a number changes.
time never waits; quit your job and screw around, just don't forget the train.
time doesn't heal. you only think how you fucked up when you're alone at the platform while the winds mock you.
everything's still moving, like clockwork, time is following.
drop the umbrella stand in the rain; take out all you've got left and reminisce.
think of what happened. why what went wrong, did. drop the blame and let go of all that hate; mistakes aren't useless, failure's not always is for losers; all the emotions and anger do no good clouding your head...
don't worry, fair weather is on the way.
let everything fall into place. all the flashes. all those voices. free yourself and remember you did no wrong because this game doesn't give seats to blame.
when you're ready... oh look! it's just right. now let me pick up all the pieces, they'll fall into place, i believe they will. now if you excuse me, i have a train to catch.
Friday, December 12, 2008 2:21 pm
hahahahahahahaha! i have no idea why i should be elated about this surprising thing you have... accomplished? !! but i am!!!! rah. i hope this happy feeling at least stays a bit before mom gets home.
life is terrible, but people change! you give me hope! (i think that's why i'm happy!)
Thursday, December 11, 2008 12:38 pm
i have issues. duuh.
home is where the heart is. "doctor! what if i can't find a donor?!" "don't worry sir, we will find you a donor. (then you're fucked heh)" great. i'm so looking forward to that day.
michael! come fix the tv! michael! there's something wrong with the washing machine! michael! can i play with your phone! (my dad's in love with solitaire) michael! help me get _____. michael! why don't you move. michael! don't forget the vitamins! michael! go do your chores! michael! help me open the window! (cursed i was, the day i became tall) michael! go do your work! michael! when do you plan to do this? boys are so stupid! (it's not my fault your boyfriend is, sister..) your school sucks! (yours was great! helped you get eighteen fucking points right...) "..." (yea thanks for listening to me. greaat help)
i get all that, and i'm supposed to study and do work in that VERY SAME place.
you all could leave me alone for starters. i ask for nothing else, some fucking peace, screw the oh-michael-tell-me-what's-wrong.
i can give you all so much, and all i want is some space. alone. you know, i wish the house was empty. cause if i gave it silence, at least it'll fucking reciprocate.
Monday, December 08, 2008 10:23 pm
it's complicated. very. the downsides of technology. as compared to me. hilarious, nice one god.
you are patient,
you are kind,
you'll never leave our minds,
you can hurt in the behind.
you are tender,
you are strong,
you would make a good steak,
and could last forever.
you are pleasure,
you are pain,
you're about giving,
and not what we stand to gain.
you are honest,
you are trust,
truth here is a must,
stop thinking about all that lust.
you are beautiful,
you are sexy,
sometimes you're so petty,
nothing but messy.
you are nowhere,
you are everywhere,
people are always looking for you,
surprise them, that's what you always do.
you are everything,
you are nothing,
no one could ever find the right words for you;
i know it's not nice,
but your name will have to suffice,
so... what are you?