Friday, May 30, 2008 9:12 pm
you know. i like my juniors.
i mean i seriously do. most of them at least.
stubborn, lazy and really lazy.
thats 'em..
theres one guy that is pretty (insert swearing here) annoying.
but if i stare at him. he listens. usually.
but you know like some of them cant really do moves and
they need to wake up.
so the sec3s and me gave them a heavy strength training.
it was just 15round frog jumps.
but i felt terrible. terrible cause i have to persuade, push, force
people, juniors, friends.
when i forced to do PT by seniors.
i openly reveal that i hated my seniors.
ok maybe not hated, but strongly disliked.
and now im in the hot seat. im forcing people to do strength,
because they need to be able to do the moves and
because it'll keep them fit.
and in the process of it, i see faces
filled with unhappiness.
brim of pain.
and when i look closer.
they turn away. annoyance and mild anger.
i tell you. it hurts. like hell. forcing people to do things,
making them hate you in the process,
even though it for their sake.
but for me, it all to do with growing up i guess.
so back to the old school way of just...
dealing with it.
ouch
Wednesday, May 28, 2008 7:03 pm
he lands on the hard floor;
his head brim of ringing noise;
bones feel as if they're gonna break,
muscles feel like lead;
the pounding of his heart.
warm blood seeps from the crack within;
eyes slip in and out of focus,
ears senseless from the shock
and nerves tingling numb...
taking a deep breath
he tries to get up.
his brain screaming at him
his soul encouraging him to persevere.
he knows his bones can't break,
he knows his body won't fail him.
the feeling of standing,
even though his back isn't straight
and one arm hangs painfully limp;
that warmth of relief,
the heat of determination,
flows throughout him.
his thoughts are back.
he got hit. bad.
he shakes his head,
clearing his mind;
opening him to the way to his goal.
he may have fallen a broken man,
but he stands with a soul intact;
and he knows what he needs to do.
Saturday, May 24, 2008 9:47 pm
ah no mood to blog.
damn bored.
amath tuition frm 9.30 to 11.
damn sian. 2 hrs of coord geom.
could die.
then when i got home aft lunch,
i slept from 2:45 to 5:30.
O.O
haha ownage.
Thursday, May 22, 2008 6:21 pm
ah. stupid results.
phbth.
Sunday, May 18, 2008 9:36 pm
pool, pool, pool, pool!!
POOL!!!
Saturday, May 17, 2008 2:44 pm
im bored, sleepy and bored.
wait i already mentioned that?
see told you. tired. very.
well you know whats coming.
everyday we walk through millions of doors
doors that are our choices
altering the course of our life.
is this what we are destined for?
trapped within an endless maze,
with every subjective choice making you more lost;
it seems vast
as do the number of options given,
but yet we are still bound by invincible bars.
or are we just puppets,
controlled by higher beings
possibly non-sentient forms of life;
made to walk aroung aimlessly
as they laugh mercilessly at our despair.
what happens when our life comes to an end?
do the puppets just laugh and charge the batteries?
and we go through it all over again.
an endless loop.
or is the end actually the beginning of eternity?
when we can walk straight through walls
and the cage of life.
when we can as great as our dreams
or as strong as our hopes?
no idea actually.
either maybe right.
but one thing i know,
whether this a a cage or a boundless ocean,
we all took the choice to think about this.
we all took the choice to hope and dream.
because that's what really matters.
Monday, May 12, 2008 8:55 pm
man u won the bpl.
woohoo. so happy.
haha.
and im also so tired.
i promised myself i'll catch up on sleep during the weekend,
and i come to school tired today. HAHA
screw this man.
Saturday, May 10, 2008 3:44 pm
Switchfoot ~ Stars
Maybe I've been the problem, maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself, the outcome feels the same
I've been thinkin maybe I've been partly cloudy, maybe I'm the chance of rain
Maybe I'm overcast, and maybe all my lucks washed down the drain
I've been thinking 'bout everyone, everyone you look so lonely
But when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars I see someone else
When I look at the stars,
the stars, I feel like myself
Stars lookin at our planet watching entropy and pain
And maybe start to wonder how the chaos in our lives could pass as sane
I've been thinking bout the meaning of resistance, of a hope beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent begin to look like home
I've been thinking bout everyone, everyone you look so empty
But when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars I see someone else
When I look at the stars,
the stars, I feel like myself
everyone, everyone we feel so lonely
everyone, yeah everyone we feel so empty
When I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars I feel like myself
When I look at the stars, the stars
I see someone...
Friday, May 09, 2008 9:14 pm
exams finished ystd.
halo here i come!!!
:)
Monday, May 05, 2008 5:25 pm
one word for physics paper.
fucked up.
oh wait that's two.
argh!
Saturday, May 03, 2008 9:42 am
when im bored or have free time.
and mr brain is buzzing with random thoughts,
i'll end up writing a poem.
actually, this pretty bores me. but who cares. -
the sun could never
shine without,
that's what he thought, oh yes.
the night would never dare
fall onto that warmth.
he felt the heavens would cry
with the sorrow
so would he.
but things never moved.
the sun stayed up all the day,
in fact it haven't even started.
then so be it.
he let all of it go,
welcoming the instant nightfall
with open arms,
greeting the rain with
a gleeful face.
he thought the sun would never shine
again. it worried him.
however, it did.
it shone everytime he looked in the sky,
everytime he yearned for it.
no one could take it away.
because that light he saw wasn't in the sky,
it wasn't a gift,
it was a part of
the time of joy
inside himself.
Friday, May 02, 2008 5:08 pm
had geog and emath exams today.
geog was actually easier than i had expected :D
hopefully i can get better than last term.
quite possible.. 52 % ain't no feat.
hahaha.
emaths wasnt too tough either. hope can get Aoneeeeee.
i need a lot of luck for chinese on mon though. and physics.
cya!
check
it out. hot? maybe? hahaha..
Thursday, May 01, 2008 11:49 am
hardwork x motivation = passing
hardwork = (energy + concentration) / studying time
motivation = intial mood / mood after seeing workload
let intial mood be
xif mood after seeing workload = -
x,motivation = -1
(na)therefore, motivation = undefined
and.... passing = undefined
>.<