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water seeps in the house,
the music goes on,
you and me on the couch
enjoying the warm embrace.

the shortcircuit wakes us up,
by the second floor was wet;
she screams and i jump as
the stereo erupts into a fire.

they dance on the water
gold glowing on the black surface;
the next moment, the walls
turn a valiant orange and
the fire's closing in on us.

i push her onto the floor
as i try to get our clothes wet;
then we run through the live walls
shielding her from the heat.

the road never felt so right
my head's screaming at me
for being a loving fool.
i could almost laugh at myself,
but the skies are becoming darker
and her voice loses touch
all i know, is she seems fine
me? i'm good...?
the world goes black. changed the blogskin. finally.
it was so troublesome. the damn column on the right.
haha.

first exam paper is in approx 1 month.
on the count of three, everybody say "fuck!" teacher's day celeb was okay i guess.
[edit]
poems are getting dull,
songs lose their colour;
time crawls to a halt
and life is caught in a standstill.
blood flows through my veins,
and i don't seem to slow down;
things are getting worse
the pain's gonna make me burst
how can i make it stop?
what can i do?
when my heart beats for you.
[/edit]

words fail me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LCDfOXWZtUU

There'll be girls across the nation
That will eat this up babe
I know that it's your soul but could you bottle it up and
Get down to the heart of it,
No it's my heart you're shit out of your luck
Don't make me tell you again my love love love love.
Love love love love.

I am aiming to be somebody this somebody trusts
With her delicate soul
I don't claim to know much except soon as you start
To make room for the parts
That aren't you it gets harder to bloom in a garden of
Love love love love
Love Love love love

Only thing I ever could need, only one good thing
Worth trying to be and it's

Love
Love
Love
Love
I do it for Love
Love
Love
Love

We can understand the sentiment you're saying to us
Oh,
But sensible sells so could you kindly shut up
And get started
At keeping your part of the bargain aw please
Little darlin'
You're killing me sweetly with love love love love
Love love love love

Only thing I ever could need only one good thing
Worth trying to be

Love
Love
Love
Love
I do it for Love
Love
Love
Love

Started as a flicker meant to be a flame
Skin has gotten thicker but it burns the same
Still a baby in a cradle got to take my first fall
Baby's getting next to nowhere with her back
Against the wall.
You meant to make me happy make me sad.
Want to make it better better so bad.
But save your resolutions for your never new year
There is only one solution I can see here.

Love you're all I ever could need only one good thing
Worth trying to be and it's
Love
Love
Love
Love
I do it for love, love, love, love
Oh, only gonna get get what you give away,
So give love, love
Only gonna get get what you give away
Love. spammmmm.
physics. lost ten marks due to careless mistakes.
lol. i feel like crap. twentyfive fucking percent.
goneee. grr.

OBS made me think about what's important.
made me look at myself. and stop pretending
to myself. now i know. and it sucks.
i don't want to end up lying to myself..
for this long. because its emotional,
indecisive,
cowardly,
stupid
and very like myself.

-its like bluffing a mirror.
its almost impossible,
but just close your eyes,
and you see whatever you want to see..
and some that you just don't want to at all. [edit 2] i can't even here them myself,
but they're there. [/edit]

[edit] i am SO going nuts. [/edit]

i wrote a song during SS.
i think it sucks ><
ah i feel bad. terrible. ah results sucked.

the night is bright. im finally blogging abt OBS.
just summarise la k.
i damn lazy.

DAY1: met my watch, they weren't that bad la.
then we went to get our food supplies and learnt
basic stuff abt managing the store. haha pitching the
tent is annoying lol. i can't do it for shit. thank god
for scouts. then aft that we learnt belaying.
its^ basically just 3 ppl holding the weight of one guy
incase he lets go off the thing he's climbing. etc.

DAY2: we did FLYING FOX. wooooooo it was fun man.
its takes like a freak long time to climb up the
damn long ladder. its like jumping down is not tiring
enough. hahaha. well i fuck scared of heights.
like a few stories of an unfamiliar height and i am
scared shit. so you can imagine. after i climbed up,
its like after my safety line was removed and the only
thing keeping me tethered to life was the wire i had to
jump down, my heart stopped. it bloody freaking did :P
then jump lor. a bit short la. dang. my heart only started
again when i touched the ground. anyway aft that,
we kayaked to some beach like place and slept there.

DAY3: land exp. trekked arnd ubin. arnd 10 km?
lols. the bag mega was like fucking heavy.
bloody groundsheet and messtins. all the way to camp 1.
the dinner we had was THE bomb. volunteered for sea
exp leader. lols. long story.

DAY4: kayaked 17 kilometers. arnd ubin.
sigh. it was actually quite fun. haha. i was like swearing
openly at people who were going into johor waters.
in front of instructors. LOL.

DAY5: organise the store. at went HOME.

-// servant leadership really makes sense.
maybe it has some relation to "take it out on me"
hmm?

-/// OBS brought me back to the ground.
back to what's important. attitude to life.
remembering what's important.
you still fall in that category. ah OBS was fun.
LOL. im so hyped up now that im home.
will blog when i get into the mood.

see olympic gymnasts trampoline routine.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RuGRNKezSWg
OMG AWEEESOME STUFF!!!!!

we are all stronger thank we think. ah. CTs are overrr.
lol. so lag. sigh.
obs tmrw till fri.
i hope my grp doesnt suck.
if not... GG ><

cya on fri.
like who comes here anyway. i hope i pass lit AND ss.
(:

was multitasking like siao juz now.
1. msn
2. fbk chat
3. editting fbk grp
4. scanning some paper
5. learning emaths formulae
6. looking for bio notes frantically

LOLS.

haha. im a multitasking PRO.

wheeeeeeeeeeee.

Teacher: today we are going to learn about excretion
Student: sounds like crap to me... ah. amaths was fucks.
simple as that. fuck.
hmm. see, when im moody even my
swearing standard of grammar goes down.
><

physics was okay i guess. i totally forgot how
to convert mass in kg to weight in Newtons. so i just
tikam-ed it. and i guessed that N/m^2 and Pa
are the same. HENG SIA.
imagine the fuckload of mistakes, if i
guessed wrong :P

-two lucky guesses in a day.
hell must be coming my way.-
*HAHA i just rhymed that. sweeet*

anyway, its really fortunate, cause if not
there goes another subject. *flies out of the window*

RANDOM!!! i think i should learn music
or something. as in my poems rock (i think),
but like writing music and the lyrics would
be SO really awesomeeee!!
and plus, like i feel like my poems have reached
a point where it isn't qualify as an emotional outlet.
darn. i was hoping that day would never come.
haha. how naive and unlike me?

anyway...

i should be studying
the books and notes,
reading reading reading.
the phone calls
and the tv flashes out on me,
but no i'm still stuck...

i should be studying but i'm not,
you gotta tell me what's this you got,
that makes me lost in the plot
and why on earth is this place so hot?
__________________________

see told you poems were getting
friggin boring!! ah.imgoingverynuts.
geog was okay. i hope i pwn
the effectiveness qns man. if not
cant get distinction.
ah chem was okay.
i need the fucking a1. badly.

thethoughtsscream
ithinkitsgettingworse.
lets read it again shall we.

clouds lie on the empty sky
as winds fight to clean the scene.
moon is arched upon the ceiling,
stretching,
for the night is still quite young.

when you're lonely,
look up into the sky;
let the stars settle in your eyes
and just remember,
someone out there
is feeling the same;
you're not alone.

tonight the stars scream out the light;
i look up and see..
wishing you're doing the same,
watching me
watching you;

i look up and see..
you gazing at the stars
eyes alight
heart open and arms outstretched;

when i look up
into the stars,
i see myself making a plea
that you were here beside me. [edit]
i've found the answer!!
i wear a mask, because in this world,
there's no such thing as doing good toward others.
if you doing something nice, there must be another
reason. i think not. but then again,
how do you do honest good if everyone knows you?
its PERFECT.
i wear a mask, because i care.
[/edit]

on a lighter note...

5:20 pm

there are questions to be done,
papers to be written on,
formulae to remember,
yet, im bored.

this is a realy weird and funny quiz. (:
1. put your music player on shuffle
2. for every question, press forward once.
3. use the title of the song, no matter
how little sense it make, as the answer.
happy reading(:

1. How are you feeling today?
Hero/Heroine - Boys Like Girls
heroic? HAHAHA. i wish.

2. Will you get far in life?
Through the Glass - Stonesour
hmm. transparent life?
doesn't sound good..

3. What's your best friend's theme song?
Dare You To Move - Switchfoot
????

4. What is the story of your life?
Your Guardian Angel - RJA
cool. makes sense. sorta?

5. What was highschool like?
I Don't Love You - MCR
i can't say i really like school either.

6. How can you get ahead with life?
Long Way To Go - The Click Five
HAHAHAHAHA. amusing. very.

7.What's the best thing about your friends?
Stars - Switchfoot
now. this is.. i hope its true (:

8.Describe your grandparents.
The Great Escape - Boys Like Girls
whaTHEhell?

9.How's your life going?
Dance Floor Anthem - Good Charlotte
hmm

10.What'll be played at your funeral.
Boston - Augustana
its a niceeee song (:

11. Will you have a happy life?
Light Up The Sky - Yellowcard

12. What do your friends really think of you?
Empty - The Click Five
i agree. most people don't know fuck about me.

13. Do people secretly lust after you?
That's What You Get - Paramore
hmm. my charm?? LOL.

14. How can you make yourself happy?
Better Days - Goo Goo Dolls
that... doesn't answer the qn?!

15. Will you ever have children?
Love Song - Sara Bareilles
riight...

16. What song would you strip to?
The Scientist - Coldplay
WHATTHEFUCK!!?!!?

17. What does your mom think of you?
Look What You've Done - Jet
HAHAHAHAHA. the aftermath...

18. What is your deep, dark secret?
Addicted To Me - The Click Five
.....

19. What is your enemy's theme song?
If Everyone Cared - Nickelback
???

20.What's your personality like?
Drops of Jupiter - Train
... ALIEN after all...

Sunday, August 10, 2008 11:04 pm

POEM-

clouds lie on the empty sky
as winds fight to clean the scene.
moon is arched upon the ceiling,
stretching,
for the night is still quite young.

when you're lonely,
look up into the sky;
let the stars settle in your eyes
and just remember,
someone out there
is feeling the same;
you're not alone.

tonight the stars scream out the light;
i look up and see..
wishing you're doing the same,
watching me
watching you;

i look up and see..
you gazing at the stars
eyes alight
heart open and arms outstretched;

when i look up
into the stars,
i see myself making a plea
that you were here beside me.

Saturday, August 09, 2008 11:44 pm

ah. im tired.
very. i don't know. as long as im awake,
im tired. i still at a lost of what to do.
im afraid of what may happen.
ouch.
yawn.
nite.

Wednesday, August 06, 2008 10:58 pm

poem-

black glass shines at him,
he stares back, captivated.
the situation's appearance
is somewhat startling,
as opponents are balanced
across opposing sides of the court.

Nothing's perfect,
not even reflections,
of yourself especially;
flaws stand like scratches on black,
traits shine with jewels in the dark.

' screams at him,
silently moaning in pain,
as the darkness shatters
with a flash of his fist,
seemingly ceasing to exist?
they are nothing apart
but one again.

Monday, August 04, 2008 8:12 pm

i wrote a poem in bio today.
took 20 mins.
its not true. :D
______________________________

the clock strikes nine and the phone rings,
again she stares at it,
not knowing what to do.

please, please, just pick up,
the sweat and the tears
i can barely keep up;
its drving me nuts,
i'm going insane
just let me have the chance to explain.

the phone clicks,
i get one word,
its more than i deserve,
but im glad, all the same.

minutes go by,
the guilt pours out of me,
as the tears collect on her lap;
i hope she's listening,
the silence itself strikes fear in my heart
but i keep on talking.

i wish i could see her face,
touch her cheek
and catch her tears.
but no, hundreds of miles away she is.

The silence bids goodbye,
' coughs the tears away
and speaks.

she didn't really wanna go,
she didn't really blame me,
that's what she said.

In the end, i hang up,
because i can tell,
that with her tears,
her honestly fell.
______________________________

7:55 pm

a blog quiz from HU. hehe. ok la. jerry.

A) People who have been tagged must write their
answers on their blogs and replace any question
that they dislike with a new question formulated by them.

B) Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who
are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state
who they were tagged by and cannot tag the
person whom they were tagged by. Continue this
game by sending it to other people.

1. What are your reasons for having a LJ?
i have a blog cause its for me to spam stuff like rants, poems
or stupid accounts of my day.
2. What do you do before bed time?
listen to music(or talk on the phone) while reading a book.
or just stone and think about stuff that are on my mind.
3. What would your dream wedding be like?
i have no idea, but i want it to be a small one.
you know, private and romantic. i guess?
4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
Japan!! haha sushi and sashimi FTW!! oh yea
and japanese gadgets are frickin cool (:
5. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
both actually, but in truth im someone who
really enjoys occasional moments of ME time.
6. Which is more blessed; being loved or to love someone?
being loved. but i guess it takes two to tango.
7. Do you trust easily?
like DUH no.
8. What person, dead or alive, is your role model?
my role model is someone who sacrifices himself
for the better if others and someone who knows
how to really have FUN.
9. Is there anything that has been making you unhappy recently?
YES..... what!? they didn't say i needed to specify!!
10. When's the last time you had fun?
about 4 hrs ago. SOCCER.
11. Is being tagged fun?
yes. it shows that ppl giveashit about your life (:
12. How do you see yourself?
er. as someone who needs to learn to strike
when the iron WAS hot
13. Who are currently, the most important people to you?
my bed, sugar/caffeine, russian encyclopedia and my PHONE!!
wait. they aren't all people are they? hmm...
14. What kind of person, do you think the person who tagged you is?
JERRY is a great guy, though sometimes a bit insensitive with
the name calling, he's still awesome!! HI HU!!
15. Would you rather be rich but single? or poor but married?
rich AND married.
16. How many children would you want to have, if any?
don't really know i guess. but more
17. What's better? To give or to receive?
to give. but actually, it depends.
18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
i doubt that'll ever happen.
19. What would you do if you (or your girlfriend) became pregnant unexpectedly?
SCREAM, but then again... see 18
20. What are you waiting for right now?
cupid's automatic to aim right, for god's sake.

SEEING AS NOT MANY WILL ACTUALLY READ THIS,
DO THE QUIZ IF YOU CAN SEE this CLEARLY.
HAHAHAHAHA.

Sunday, August 03, 2008 7:42 pm

i did some chinese newspaper article the whole day.
gnna mug SS later.
woo. ystd i had 2 solid hrs of physics.
im soo happy.

btw. mik, when you do read this, i hate you.
you went to singfest and saw
onerepublic
panic!atthedisco
jasonmraz.
oh, i so hate you.

this is my reflection in english, before

translation. the pic below was copied (:

from the newspaper cutting. haha.

my drawing suck cock man.

evidently, the name has caught on.

hahaha.

Friday, August 01, 2008 10:54 pm

flip a coin,
roll the dice,
draw a card,
pluck all the petals;

tell me what i should do.

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you are patient,
you are kind,
you'll never leave our minds,
you can hurt in the behind.

you are tender,
you are strong,
you would make a good steak,
and could last forever.

you are pleasure,
you are pain,
you're about giving,
and not what we stand to gain.

you are honest,
you are trust,
truth here is a must,
stop thinking about all that lust.

you are beautiful,
you are sexy,
sometimes you're so petty,
nothing but messy.

you are nowhere,
you are everywhere,
people are always looking for you,
surprise them, that's what you always do.

you are everything,
you are nothing,
no one could ever find the right words for you;
i know it's not nice,
but your name will have to suffice,
so... what are you?