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lately, i've been having trouble studying,
like its not like i'm lazy or smthg. i think?
but like you know just not having the motivation to study,
its like been making me pretty down.
i mean besides getting screwed by parents etc,
they cant really do much to motivate me. honestly.
and like i knew i was the root cause of this motivation thing
it was like my attitude or mindset or whatever.
so i like spent freaking hours thinking abt why.
why why why i should be studying.

i mean even my mom, like was sorta worried cause
when i was in my room the yesterday,
she was talking to my sis abt how i was going to fail.
evidently, i wasn't supposed to hear anything,
but you know sound travels pretty well thru solid concrete.
thats how i know. hmm.

so anyway. i spent like hours wondering and pondering
and daydreaming and sleeping, instead of being loyal to the books.
then i got it.

i mean, if i didnt study.
i would get like last in class definitely.
cause term 1 i like studied halfheartedly,
and got sencond last. ahem.
so if i dont study at all... DIEEEE.
anyway. my relevation was that,
across the course of this term, alot off ppl have helped me,
and supported and encouraged me.
and if i were to do badly, their efforts would be fruitless.
besides, i would be so fucked. but thats just a minor part.
hahahahaha.
furthermore, i would be disappointing those people as mentioned
and obviously, myself. haha. so that's it.

with the previous problem out of my life,
i wish that i can fulfil my duties as a student and a
responsible friend and just start fucking studying.
amen to that.

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