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in bored.
and im stressed out.
and im getting a cold.
and i like the above poem.

haha. now is the time,
where i'm screaming for time
for myself,
screaming for something to scream..

perched upon the peak of despair,
a sorrow plinth of display,
like a reminder to all,
to give a damn,
to find a reason to live.

trapped within the soul of myself,
like a glass cage,
pleading, begging to soar away.

the key is unknown to many,
including the victim of me.
the consisting bars
carved from the weight of tiredness,
sucked from the waves of pressure,
grasped from the wind of love.

pray tell,
speak to me, the revered saviour,
tell me the blessed words of life,
freeing me of the intense weights,
leaving behind the dreaded weights.

give me a reason,
a reason to walk,
a reason to breathe and soar
give me motivation. wah this is one of those times in life where everything sucks.
and even playing comp doesn't make you feel better.

i mean. like school wise, chem is fucked.
so is geog.

its like school is so cramped. i finish at 2.10 everyday.
then like gym is at 2.30.
and training is like mostly a waste of time. cuase of what i do and not do.

and the only time i destress is when i run for like 15 mins.
on tues and thurs and sat. 45 mins of destress ing for 1 WEEK.
-.-

im am feeling soo fucked. two words to describe today.
ABSOLUTE FUCK
three words to be more descriptive.
ABSOLUTE FUCKING FUCK.
four words.
FUCKING ABSOLUTE FUCKING FUCK.
five?
FUCKING FUCKED-UP ABSOLUTE FUCKING FUCK.

anyway.
1) fucking train got problem frm pasir ris to tanah merah.
2) i get fucking late for fucking school.
3) i fucking fail my fucked up maths test.
4) i get a fucking headache during chinese.
5) i spend my recess looking for mr ______. only to find he's not in sch.
6) i spend my fucking lunch break looking for another HOL.
7) i have a pau for lunch. have to rush to fucking training.
8) waste half of fucking training doing nothing as usual. and being emo.
9) reach home and realise i nvr bring home the fucking testpaper to get signature.
10) i'm in no fucking mood to do anything fucking thing.

as i said earlier.

FUCKING FUCKED-UP ABSOLUTE FUCKING FUCK. im too lazy to upload pics or post smthg long.
sian.... blah blah blah.
today finally got geog hw.
damn sian redy.
anyway.. had maths test today...
like was total OHMYFUCK.
if im realllly lucky, i'll PASS.
haha. seriously. sim eq damn fucked up man.. today there was no homework.
NONE!!! hahah. rocks man.
and i went home, spent 30 mins revising maths
then went to slack :P
hahahaha.
anyway. tmrw got simultaneous eq maths test.
which is like counted for TA. according to the teacher.
so im like i dont give a shit. haha. ok. i do.
on sunday, i chiong 2 hours know...

anyway. im so happy. one of the juniors i taught finally connected his routine!!
haha. im so proud of me and.. nat(of course).

anyway. im goin to go play now.
BYE

halo addict - hmmm. maybe? reminder to self : http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=96358&action=Preview

ystd was pretty cool man. i mean it was like cool. sorta.
ok ok. in the morning we had pe. 2.4 for pe.
haha. i ran 14.06. like wth. i was like jogging all the way with kelmond.
then we were all talking about stupid stuff... haha.
then before we knew it, it was like 12 min plus for 5 laps. LOL.
and then lessons, more lessons.....
then like before recess, bryan david like came to me and asked me to help
keep the class keys during recess. i was like WTF. then he was like being all sincere and all
so i like took them. and i realised. it felt weird... like the treasure in my pocket..
felt good to be given responsibility. hahahahhaha. i know. i better go see a shrink or something.
but seriously!! haha. nvm. i'll think about it.

anyway. aft recess and SS, i got scolded during maths.
for laughing too much.
by darth vader.
THEeeee imperial ruler of the galaxy.
when she scolded me... it was like pretty weird. more of a plead for my discipline,
than a scolding. i mean i saw the good in her(my teacher). its like when darth vader saves luke from darth sidious, because of some paternal instinct...
anyway. the other surprising thing of that 'scolding' was that man...
you're darth FREAKING vader!!! why can't you scold better!!!
man i was actually disappointed. seriously! i was expecting to be impaled by her lightsaber.
but no. just tickled by the force. -.- it like just bounced of my bony armour. haha.

and then during training, terry went off earlier cause he needed to go polyclinic.
and then nat was like teach the juniors to connect the two halfs of the routine.
then i was like. cant i just continue slacking? then he gave me this face that spelled UBER no.
haha. so i was like seriously training all of them. then milton was like can i have your hp no.
i was so touched. haha. seriously. cause it like takes a lot to get your juniors to respect you,
and like asking for your senior's hp no / email is like proof of it.
how i know?
i did it too. so anyway. i was like momentarily stunned and i took it in my stride.
and yeah.
that was it of yesterday.
it wasn't a whacked up day.
wasn't a weird day.
wasn't a funny day.
it was a good day.
a nice touching and very surpirising and cool, but good day.
:) damn little hw today.
woooooooo!!
haha.
see yeah. sian.
damn sian.
today, i did an amaths sum 5 times.
4 of which, i got it wrong.
wheeeeeeeeeeee. haha.
throughout of today,
i have been feeling all high.
its like i'll be saying buby wuby, yogi apparatus (inside joke), and some other lame shit.
i keep on blaming it on the lack of sleep.
true what. even if i sleep at ten, i'll still feel tired.
or maybe its cause i wake up at five. hmmm.
its actually ususally five 15, but cause its like uber cold,
i hafta use 15 mins to warm up.
oh yeah. ystd, i was too lazy to blog, so i went to play straight away...
hehe.
oh yeah. i can do at least 1 pull up eh!
woo. haha such a humongous accomplishment for me...
the other 2 weren't really counted cause its was up to my lips only.
lols.
anyway. darth vader has a new enemy.
she's called .... (drumroll)
THE Grandmother.
she uses her extreme powers to make people age instantly!
vaporize people's energy and memory instantly too!
haha. my geog teacher. :P

ok ok bye bye the first wkend of the year...
got amaths hw like siao.
and some lit shit.
ok gonna chiong halo liao.
bye bye

Helliopath - 49 kills
OWNAGE hello all.
school has started.
erm its all right..
i think its like supposedly more stressful...
haha. i find sec 3 like... okay.
of course, teachers talk much faster,
talk much more. talk much better. except for...
darth vader.
well we call her that cause she's like a supreme bitch.
just imagine an ordinary bitch.
well she's like THE queen bitch.
every lesson, she will like bitch once before lesson starts.
so... darth vader. oh yeah. and she's a better teacher when she isnt teaching.
yes. i said it right. a voice is so rich of monotony. its not funny.
no rhyme intended... i tell you, she will fail english oral.
anyway...
back to sec3.
its okay i guess. but seeing as the teachers haven't brought out the big guns,
i wasn't expecting much.
i had pe on fri. we like ran 1.2 for warm up. omg. it seemed soooo long.
lol. im so unfit. and i still cant do a pull up.
ya whatever...laugh at me -.-
i like so need to do a pull up.
ya.. blah blah.
anyway. this weekend i had like amaths to do.
massive amt of simultaneous eqs.
and some lit. TKAM.
to kill a mockingbird. not tikam. haha. LAME! -.-
anyway. im like pretty sleepy.
i think im gonna end the post here.

BYE A quote from my lit book.
cheem eh.


anyway.....
here's my teacher summary.
english - cool man. she's the sort of sophisticated person english teacher's shld be.
maths -ohmygod. she talks in such rich monotony... you can become part of the chair. (you wish you were deaf)
chem - my form teacher. quite nice.
bio - walking bio talking machine. totally.
phys - my cool. dresses cool. gave us his hp no. !!!!! lolz.
chin - the gym TIC. lols. quite nice la. can teach.
geog - some seriously old person blabbed abt her career in sji as an 'intro' to geog
lit - erm. oh. quite ok la. loud ish. but still ok. whew.

ok bb go chiong halo now blah. sneaking now.
ystd didnt have time to blog.
boohoo.
will try to blog tonight.
cause i reached home at arnd 4 plus.

cya HAPPY FRIGGIN NEW YEAR!!!

ok. i think this is gonna be one of those super long posts.
so be ready. even then,
no one reads this... so. bleh.

anyway. its the new year. and one whole fucking year has passed.
anyway. this year, overall didn't suck that much.
surprisingly. haha. me, the ultimate pessimist.
so.. its like sec 2 was pretty cool.
got to know my classmates better. not really,
but you get the drift. and erm, seeing as i didn't study much,
because of some unforseen disturbances,
my grades didn't really suck that much.
i mean, well chem went down ALOT and i
FAILED history. but BIG FUCKING DEAL.
man i sooo give a shit. so.... going back to all reflection thingie..
erm. the class party was pretty cool.
and... blah got selected for eng TDP.
(talent yeah right)........
and.. yep that was the main stuff of year 2007.
oh yeah... erm there's...
oh yeah. thats confidential :P

anyway, so for the fucking new year of 2008,
i plan to be ... hmm.
lets make a list.

1. kick more academic ass (do better in studies, you twit)
2. not get distracted by other unforseen distractions.
3. try to want to go home, instead of taking my time to get home aft gym.
4. top 5 for first term. (probably impossible, but what the heck)

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watched it today. not bad.. not bad.

bye. SCHOOL IS TMRW!!!

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you are kind,
you'll never leave our minds,
you can hurt in the behind.

you are tender,
you are strong,
you would make a good steak,
and could last forever.

you are pleasure,
you are pain,
you're about giving,
and not what we stand to gain.

you are honest,
you are trust,
truth here is a must,
stop thinking about all that lust.

you are beautiful,
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sometimes you're so petty,
nothing but messy.

you are nowhere,
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people are always looking for you,
surprise them, that's what you always do.

you are everything,
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no one could ever find the right words for you;
i know it's not nice,
but your name will have to suffice,
so... what are you?