Sunday, April 15, 2007 7:51 pm
today was a totally screwed up day.
there was absolutely NO motivation to mug.
none. zilch. bleah.
well, even veteran muggers go through dry patches.
*sigh*
wasted day.
anyway,
i just realised none of my friends actually are friends.
ok. that didn't make sense. but let's see.
b4 i offend anyone,
im
NOT just crapping here, i mean it.
classmate 1:
i don't annoy you with racist comments.
i call u by ur proper name.
YET...
you still make fun of me.
can't resist the temptation or let any opportunity go by to make fun of me.
and HURT me.
classmate 2:
i do make fun of you.
though not as much as you do to me.
YET...
you still are a daily pain in the ass.
wheeee -.-
classmate 3:
i dun make fun of you at all.
YET...
you still make fun of me.
though hardly at all. but if u add up everything, they hurt ALOT.
gymmate 1:
u r just completely annoying.
nothing much here.
gymmate 2:
it would e nice if u stopped pointing out i dun have a life.
thx. u kindess and maturity will be mostly appreciated.
-.-
gymmate 3:
jokes are fine, but life isn't one.
get used to it.
its a one-way friendship
and those sort nvr work out.
SEE?!?! ALL I DO IS BE NICE, AND HELPFUL AND NOT ANNOYING AND RESPECTFUL AND NICE again AND NOT IRRITATING. AND WHAT DO I GET BACK??? HUH? INSULTS, IRRITATIONS, JOKES THROWN AT ME, ETC ETC
THIS IS WHAT I GET FROM BEING NICE.
BLOODY BRILLIANT.
I TRIED SO HARD TO BE NICE. NOT BE SNAPPY AND MAKE FRIENDS.
I THOUGHT I COULD START AFRESH FROM ST MICH'S AND GET A LIFE,
HAVE FRIENDS LIKE NORMAL PPL.
INSTEAD OF BEING OSTRACIZED AND AVOIDED LIKE THE MOTHERFUCKING PLAGUE
IN PRI SCH.
BUT, NOOOO...
I GET TREATED LIKE A PEICE OF FUCKING CRAP.
AGAIN, BLOODY BRILLIANT.
THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR BEING NICE.
BEING TOLERANT.
HAVING CONTROL OVER MY TEMPER.
MY ANGER.
WELL, THINGS DUN LAST FOREVER.
NEITHER DOES MY TOLERANCE.
ALL YOU PPL THERE,
I DUN DESERVE.
SO MUCH FOR STARTING NEW.
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT PAIN IS UNTIL YOU ARE ME.
YOU DON'T KNOW.
HAVE NOT THE FAINTEST IDEA.
NOT PHYSICAL PAIN.
WORSE.
EMOTIONAL PAIN.
HURT.
I DON'T BELIEVE THIS.
THIS IS WHAT I GET.
THIS IS WHAT I GET?
YOU WILL PAY.
GET EXPELLED WHO CARES,
YOU WILL PAY FOR ALL THAT PAIN YOU CAUSED ME
AND I FUCKING MEAN IT.
YOU WILL PAY.
PPL SAY "DUN GET EMOTIONAL"
WELL, THOSE PPL DUN KNOW WHAT PAIN IS.
THEY DUN KNOW WHAT MY PAIN IS.
WATCH ME.
MARK MY WORDS.
YOU WILL PAY.
I'M NOT GONNA WAIT TO TELL YOU TO SHUT UP.
YOU ALL WILL PAY.
REMEMBER YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT PAIN IS UNTIL YOU ARE ME.
BEING ANNOYED ALL DAY LONG?
BEING SHOVED AROUND ALL DAY LONG?
BEING TREATED LIKE ABSOLUTE DIRT ALL DAY LONG?
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT PAIN IS.
TRUST ME.
and dun even think about annoying me in school.
EITHER WAY,
YOU ALL WILL PAY.
FOR ALL THOSE INSULTS.
FOR ALL THAT HURT.
FOR ALL THE PAIN.
YOU WILL PAY.
MY ANGER WILL MAKE YOU PAY.
and how can anyone actually fear reajection.
ok mayb it IS possible..
im rejected every day lor. -.-