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haha. im over it.

i know im over it.

i think.

-.-

but i keep on thinking abt that im "over it"

which means im actually not.

WOW -.- revelation.
brilliance at its most radiant -.-

haha.

who cares.

no one is gonna spoil my mood.

hopefully.
(: emo reclusion/hibernation NO MORE!!! :))

i've gotten over it:))
wheee.
haha. sports day was today.
srry abt the previous post.
WE WON!!!
yippeeeedoodle:))

cool song and lyrics.

I Write Sins Not Tragedies

Oh, well imagine, as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,
and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words:
"What a beautiful wedding! What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.
"And yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."

I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of...

Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne
Oh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne

I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again...

I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again...

like.. hahahahahahahahaha.

emo mo mo mo mo mo mo mo mo mo mo mo
no no no no no no no no no no no no no no
MORE!!!

wheeeeeee emo reclusion/hibernation day 4
blah.

im starting to hate com sci.

trng tmrw.
strength trng. brilliant.

tmrw is sports day. i think still need to go st mich's for peer tutoring.
dang -.- emo reclusion/hibernation day 3

reclusion actually ain't that bad.

lets see how long this goes. emo reclusion/hibernation day 2

bah.
question? reply tags

yustynn: you dun geddit. thx though.
yu jie: haha. true.
minyi: my hou kong reeeeeeally sucks. haha.
livia: thx. BOO!!

sadly.
i still feel crappy.
-.- i give up.
no more competetion.
happy ppl?
no point anyway.

i'll take my pain out on running, doing sit-ups etc.
hopefully it'll help.

now i shall go into emo-hibernation until....
i decide to... get out of it.

a quote:
you wouldn't get to see the tears i've cried.
can't deny, can't pretend.
just thought you are the one.
broken up, deep inside. im totally feel like crap.
bleah. TRY!?!??!?!

like wtf.

its so obvious meh??
omg.
great.
-.-

left or right?

its like taking a chunk outa ur heart.
whee. pain.
bleah. i almost feel like breaking down.
it hurts.
way too much.
no point telling, cause its pointless.
i asked but he got.
great.
shows enough.
its over.

i seriously need to move along.

MOVE ALONG - AAR
Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

lyrics above.
nothing hurts like losing something.
nothing.
well, i've been thru alot.
i'll see whether this is any worse.
probably.

well, once again, everyone has something to be happy about.
not me.
bleah. comps was meant to be fun...
but u see...
the keyword there is "meant".
but it wasnt.

hurt like no other haha.
im blogging during sch hrs. :)

wheeeeeeeeeee.

todae's tramp comps.
me wish everyone frm SJI and NY gd LUCKIEE!!!
wheeee.
a bit high todae.

i'll hafta chiong lunch then go to CCAB. :D

see yeah.
i'll blog some time later:)) today was so so la.

got com sci again.
now im dreading com sci.
usually i dun,
but like im doing everything lor.
everything.
so screwed up la.
they all steal my credit. :(

haha. today the trampers wenta CCAB to go try out the tramp.
ezra like missed half of class la. no fair!

tmrw is comps.
going to find sec 1 and meet soggi @ the canteen.
haha. its goona probably quite fun.
and i have a strange feeling smthg is gonna happen.
bleah. penny for my own thoughts. -.-

this week is gonna pass very fast.
tmrw-tramp comps.
tmrw tmrw-going to st mich's for tutoring.. :)
tmrw tmrw tmrw-father's comin back to s'pore frm uh... London. no fair get to travel SO often wan..

wheeee:)

i had a dream.
wait. everyone has dreams its just whether u rmbr them or not.
well. i hardly rmbr mine...so rmbring is good. :D
it was abt me punching this guy in the face.
then his face was like all bloody and all.
and the teachers were quite frantic.
ppl were pulling me away frm him.
then i can't rmbr the rest of the dream.
like bleah la.
i just found out analysing ur own dream is harder than analysing ur own. DANG.

oh yeah.
i dun feel like it.
damned thing.
-.-

rain or shine,
no matter what the clime,
i'll bide my time,
cause you'll always be mine.
(come on go online!!)

the BORING day. today was an ok day...

i mean there was maths...so naturally, i thought it wld suck.
but wasn;t so bad. :D
i got 19/20 for some maths test. stupid expansion/factorisation/solving quadratic eq. -.-
heng i did the bonus question. if not only 17. :)
and then she was like going through earlier wrkshts.
the only annoying thing during that time was xin zhan whom was sent out of class.
i sit at the corner of class. so the window is like a good friend to me. -.-

haha. for PE.
ran me 2.4 km. sucked lor.
13 05
thought i cld get better.
haha. jog 5 lap an' chiong the last one.
wei hao beat me by one sec. :(
nat, i think u should be able to beat me.
dang. haha. maybe.

today got guitar lesson.
i thought it wld suck. but quite alrite:)
i learnt some chords i was supposed to know LONG time ago,
but who cares... at least i learned smthg.
and.. haha i rather sing than play that damned varnished hollow chunk of wood.

then for chinese.
lao shi damn pissed cause nobody called her into the class.
she was like " ni men lei, wo bu lei meh?"
i was like whadafuck la. we did 2.4 km.
and like... bleah. we WERE tired.
then got the stupid lang du ce yan.
like i was almost goona get away with it.
then she chose me as the last reader.
%&^^%(!!
got 6 upon 10.
i dun give a crap la.

okayy.
now the cheem stuff. :))

Theory of relativity

Special relativity
Main article: Special relativity
Special relativity is a theory of the structure of spacetime. It was introduced in Albert Einstein's 1905 paper "On the Electrodynamics of Moving Bodies". Special relativity is based on two postulates which are contradictory in classical mechanics:

The laws of physics are the same for all observers in uniform motion relative to one another (Galileo's principle of relativity),
The speed of light in a vacuum is the same for all observers, regardless of their relative motion or of the motion of the source of the light.
The resultant theory has many surprising consequences. Some of these are:

Time dilation: Moving clocks tick slower than an observer's "stationary" clock.
Length contraction: Objects are shorter along the direction in which they are moving.
Relativity of simultaneity: two events that appear simultaneous to an observer A will not be simultaneous to an observer B if B is moving with respect to A.
Mass-energy equivalence: per the relationship E = mc², energy and mass are equivalent and transmutable.
The defining feature of special relativity is the replacement of the Galilean transformations of classical mechanics by the Lorentz transformations. (See Maxwell's equations of electromagnetism and introduction to special relativity).

General relativity
Main article: General relativity
General relativity is a theory of gravitation developed by Einstein in the years 1907–1915.

The development of general relativity began with the equivalence principle, under which the states of accelerated motion and being at rest in a gravitational field (for example when standing of the surface of the Earth) are physically identical. The upshot of this is that free fall is inertial motion: In other words an object in free fall is falling because that is how objects move when there is no force being exerted on them, instead of this being due to the force of gravity as is the case in classical mechanics. This is incompatible with classical mechanics and special relativity because in those theories intertially moving objects cannot accelerate with respect to each other, but objects in free fall do so. To resolve this difficulty Einstein first proposed that spacetime is curved. In 1915, he devised the Einstein field equations which relate the curvature of spacetime with the mass, energy, and momentum within it.

Some of the consequences of general relativity are:

Time goes slower at lower gravitational potentials. This is called gravitational time dilation.
Orbits precess in a way unexpected in Newton's theory of gravity. (This has been observed in the orbit of Mercury and in binary pulsars).
Even rays of light (which are weightless) bend in the presence of a gravitational field.
The Universe is expanding, and the far parts of it are moving away from us faster than the speed of light.
Frame-dragging, in which a rotating mass "drags along" the space time around it.
Technically, general relativity is a metric theory of gravitation whose defining feature is its use of the Einstein field equations. The solutions of the field equations are metric tensors which define the topology of the spacetime and how objects move intertially.

im lazy to go find more cheem stuff. so thats it. :D

see yeah.
the day maths didn't screw up my day, since THAT day. :))

rain or shine,
no matter what the clime,
i'll bide my time,
cause you'll always be mine.
(come on go online!!) today was a totally screwed up day.
there was absolutely NO motivation to mug.
none. zilch. bleah.

well, even veteran muggers go through dry patches.
*sigh*
wasted day.

anyway,
i just realised none of my friends actually are friends.
ok. that didn't make sense. but let's see.
b4 i offend anyone,
im NOT just crapping here, i mean it.

classmate 1:
i don't annoy you with racist comments.
i call u by ur proper name.
YET...
you still make fun of me.
can't resist the temptation or let any opportunity go by to make fun of me.
and HURT me.

classmate 2:
i do make fun of you.
though not as much as you do to me.
YET...
you still are a daily pain in the ass.
wheeee -.-

classmate 3:
i dun make fun of you at all.
YET...
you still make fun of me.
though hardly at all. but if u add up everything, they hurt ALOT.

gymmate 1:
u r just completely annoying.
nothing much here.

gymmate 2:
it would e nice if u stopped pointing out i dun have a life.
thx. u kindess and maturity will be mostly appreciated.
-.-

gymmate 3:
jokes are fine, but life isn't one.
get used to it.
its a one-way friendship
and those sort nvr work out.

SEE?!?! ALL I DO IS BE NICE, AND HELPFUL AND NOT ANNOYING AND RESPECTFUL AND NICE again AND NOT IRRITATING. AND WHAT DO I GET BACK??? HUH? INSULTS, IRRITATIONS, JOKES THROWN AT ME, ETC ETC
THIS IS WHAT I GET FROM BEING NICE.
BLOODY BRILLIANT.
I TRIED SO HARD TO BE NICE. NOT BE SNAPPY AND MAKE FRIENDS.
I THOUGHT I COULD START AFRESH FROM ST MICH'S AND GET A LIFE,
HAVE FRIENDS LIKE NORMAL PPL.
INSTEAD OF BEING OSTRACIZED AND AVOIDED LIKE THE MOTHERFUCKING PLAGUE
IN PRI SCH.
BUT, NOOOO...
I GET TREATED LIKE A PEICE OF FUCKING CRAP.
AGAIN, BLOODY BRILLIANT.
THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR BEING NICE.
BEING TOLERANT.
HAVING CONTROL OVER MY TEMPER.
MY ANGER.
WELL, THINGS DUN LAST FOREVER.
NEITHER DOES MY TOLERANCE.
ALL YOU PPL THERE,
I DUN DESERVE.
SO MUCH FOR STARTING NEW.
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT PAIN IS UNTIL YOU ARE ME.
YOU DON'T KNOW.
HAVE NOT THE FAINTEST IDEA.
NOT PHYSICAL PAIN.
WORSE.
EMOTIONAL PAIN.
HURT.
I DON'T BELIEVE THIS.
THIS IS WHAT I GET.
THIS IS WHAT I GET?
YOU WILL PAY.
GET EXPELLED WHO CARES,
YOU WILL PAY FOR ALL THAT PAIN YOU CAUSED ME
AND I FUCKING MEAN IT.
YOU WILL PAY.
PPL SAY "DUN GET EMOTIONAL"
WELL, THOSE PPL DUN KNOW WHAT PAIN IS.
THEY DUN KNOW WHAT MY PAIN IS.
WATCH ME.
MARK MY WORDS.
YOU WILL PAY.
I'M NOT GONNA WAIT TO TELL YOU TO SHUT UP.
YOU ALL WILL PAY.
REMEMBER YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT PAIN IS UNTIL YOU ARE ME.
BEING ANNOYED ALL DAY LONG?
BEING SHOVED AROUND ALL DAY LONG?
BEING TREATED LIKE ABSOLUTE DIRT ALL DAY LONG?

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT PAIN IS.
TRUST ME.

and dun even think about annoying me in school.

EITHER WAY,
YOU ALL WILL PAY.
FOR ALL THOSE INSULTS.
FOR ALL THAT HURT.
FOR ALL THE PAIN.

YOU WILL PAY.
MY ANGER WILL MAKE YOU PAY.

and how can anyone actually fear reajection.
ok mayb it IS possible..
im rejected every day lor. -.- *sigh*
practicing maths sucks
stupid quadratic equations.
-.-
and that physics.

V=I R..
E= W over Q...
Electro Motive Force...
etc etc

so damn cheeeeeeeeem la.
after all, it IS cheeminology week
yes jerry,
there are advantages of tuition. i can see that NOW.
-.- bah.

lets post some absolutely cheem gibberish.

PART 1
Quarks
Quarks are fundamental matter particles that are constituents of neutrons and protons and other hadrons. There are six different types of quarks. Each quark type is called a flavor.
Quark Masses
Quarks only exist inside hadrons because they are confined by the strong (or color charge) force fields. Therefore, we cannot measure their mass by isolating them. Furthermore, the mass of a hadron gets contributions from quark kinetic energy and from potential energy due to strong interactions. For hadrons made of the light quark types, the quark mass is a small contribution to the total hadron mass. For example, compare the mass of a proton (0.938 GeV/c2) to the sum of the masses of two up quarks and one down quark (total of 0.02 GeV/c2).

So the question is, what do we mean by the mass of a quark and how do we measure it. The quantity we call quark mass is actually related to the m in F = ma (force = mass x acceleration). This equation tells us how an object will behave when a force is applied. The equations of particle physics include, for example, calculations of what happens to a quark when struck by a high energy photon. The parameter we call quark mass controls its acceleration when a force is applied. It is fixed to give the best match between theory and experiment both for the ratio of masses of various hadrons and for the behavior of quarks in high energy experiments. However, neither of these methods can precisely determine quark masses.

PART 2

Molecular Structure Calculations
Colby Chemistry, Paul J. Schupf Computational Chemistry Lab
The simple theories of bonding that we learn in General Chemistry are powerful and useful. These theories, which include Lewis structures, VSEPR, and hybridization, are simple models that help predict chemical properties. However, Lewis dot structures and hybridization are approximations that may or may not match reality. We should verify the usefulness of our simple predictions with molecular orbital theory. If the theoretical calculations are done carefully, we can learn a lot about chemical structure by comparing our Lewis structures and hybridization arguments with the molecular orbitals.

The calculations in this database include bond lengths, angles, atomic charges, the dipole moment, bond orders, and molecular orbital energies. The best Lewis structure that fits the molecular orbitals is also calculated, so you can directly compare with your predictions. This best Lewis structure is presented with formal electron pair localized bonds and the hybridization of the atomic orbitals used to form these localized bonds. The Chime plugin is needed to see the 3-D structure of the molecules in these pages. See the link at the bottom of the page for the Chime plugin.

Molecular orbital theory is based on approximations also. These calculations are done with some of the best available calculation methods (DFT for geometry and molecular orbital energies and ab initio for properties). We use Alain St-Amant's DeFT program (University of Ottawa).

The Molecular Structure Input Form, see below, will allow you to do calculations for molecules not in the database. These calculations take time; 1-2 hours in some cases.

PART 3

Carbon nanotubes
Carbon nanotubes (CNTs) are allotropes of carbon. A carbon nanotube is a one-atom thick sheet of graphite (called graphene) rolled up into a seamless cylinder with diameter of the order of a nanometer. This results in a nanostructure where the length-to-diameter ratio exceeds 10,000. Such cylindrical carbon molecules have novel properties that make them potentially useful in a wide variety of applications in nanotechnology, electronics, optics and other fields of materials science. They exhibit extraordinary strength and unique electrical properties, and are efficient conductors of heat. Inorganic nanotubes have also been synthesized.

Nanotubes are members of the fullerene structural family, which also includes buckyballs. Whereas buckyballs are spherical in shape, a nanotube is cylindrical, with at least one end typically capped with a hemisphere of the buckyball structure. Their name is derived from their size, since the diameter of a nanotube is on the order of a few nanometers (approximately 50,000 times smaller than the width of a human hair), while they can be up to several millimeters in length. There are two main types of nanotubes: single-walled nanotubes (SWNTs) and multi-walled nanotubes (MWNTs).

The nature of the bonding of a nanotube is described by applied quantum chemistry, specifically, orbital hybridization. The chemical bonding of nanotubes are composed entirely of sp2 bonds, similar to those of graphite. This bonding structure, which is stronger than the sp3 bonds found in diamond, provides the molecules with their unique strength. Nanotubes naturally align themselves into "ropes" held together by Van der Waals forces. Under high pressure, nanotubes can merge together, trading some sp2 bonds for sp3 bonds, giving great possibility for producing strong, unlimited-length wires through high-pressure nanotube linking.

now. thats it for the cheeminology.
haha.
i actually partially understand all that gibberish-ie crap. :D
haha
i shall post cheem stuff all throughout cheeminology week:D

rain or shine,
no matter what the clime,
i'll bidy my time,
cause you'll always be mine
(come on go online!!)

buh bye. :D started mugging.
actually i like started last wkend.
it totally spoils my mood.
oh. whadehell.

rain or shine,
no matter what the clime,
i'll bide my time,
cause you'll always be mine.
(come on.. go online!!) todae was a weird day..
haha..
trained sec1s for the whole trng...
haha. nvr train me back somer..
i totally hate it.
haha.

walaueh...
so few ppl tag here.
only livia bothered to give a nice cheer-up-tag. :D
all u other ppl nvr visit my blog/tag my blog...
*sigh* teenagers these days..
haha.
tag la!!
must tag when michael is in a bad mood..
understand?

good. :))

oh yeah i shall blog this everyday until i decide to tell.
:))

rain or shine,
no matter what the clime,
i'll bide my time,
cause you'll always be mine.
(come on.. go online!!)

thats it for todae..
im sorta out of stamina to blog another long post.
all my previous ones were quite long. haha

bleah see yeah.. random stuff.




HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!


TAKE THAT ROMA! LOSERS!!!


Manchester United 7 AS Roma 1 - Champions League quarter-final, second leg result
(Manchester United win 8-3 on aggregate)

Scorers:

Manchester United: Michael Carrick (11, 60), Alan Smith (17), Wayne Rooney (19), Cristiano Ronaldo (44, 49), Patrice Evra (81)

AS Roma: Daniele De Rossi (69)


source: sean tay's blog.


rain or shine,
no matter what them clime,
i shall bide by time,
cause you will always be mine. wa lau eh...
today was weird.
yes quite weird..
haha

anyway..
im like damn worried abt myself...
can;t concentrate in class...
my maths is now TOTALLY SUCKie
physics is so cheem, i though isaac(newton) was like some sorta extra-terrestrial.. haha i think i spelled that wrong..
WHY!!!!

is talking back to teachers like some sorta bloomin' OMEN!!?!??!
HUH?!??!
i know im sounding all crappy
and TOTALLY unlike michael..
but its like the only resaon wat..

unless... its
......

mayb.
not entirely impossible.
haha why do i like talk so cheem??

here's some random lyrics..
ok.
not EXACTLY random..
but its still quite random..
i guess.

This Love

I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken it’s toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won’t say goodbye anymore

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken it’s toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won’t say goodbye anymore

I’ll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything’s alright
My pressure on her hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that’s what you want me to do

yep.
thats it.

and uh..
im in a really crappy mood.
so can SOMEONE CHEER ME UP!!
like.. ANYONE, SOMEBODY?
puh-leeze?

your cheer-up-tags are most appreciated.

:D
/
D: *sigh*
todae sucked.
as in,
TOTALLY
SUCKED.
-.-

i knew it.... must be the maths period today.
todae was a bad day cause,
1. maths was the first period.
2. physics is WAY cheem.
3. english sucked. my comprehension got 12/25.. haha fail the fail lor..
4. RME, we ate some sedar meal thingie.. screwed my appetite for lunch...
5. english OCP... so-so la... couldn't do HW though cause ms syed was sitting rite behind me.
(im sitting in the corner rmbr? haha i LUV my seat. :D)
6. uh then we like finished class early... haha. nthign bad here.
7. trng. its was so T^%$&*(%&^(%^&^$^#)(*^%#@#!@!^%&^^)*_()*&*)*&U*&*(&*)
up. *sigh* now i dun dare to tuck after kneeing my left eye for the SECOND TIME this month..
8. played soccer. hurt my ankle...

now does that suck or wat??

and when taking the bus home, i realised that i left my water bottle in gym
BRILLIANT.
ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT.
-.-

THAT IS WHY TODAE TOTALLY SUCKED.
YES U HEARD ME.
TOTALLY SUCKED.
TOTALLY. todae was quite a screwed up day..

had to wear my stupid tie for todae and the rest of the week.
cause i forgot to bring it on mon.
like whadahell..
anyway, i only wear it during form teacher's period..
haha. if not its folded in me pocket :P

had like 2 geog periods, cause mrs fong said we already missed a period on mon, due to no classes, and on thurs we r gonna miss our last period of the week, cause school is finishing early.. :D like at abt 12.30. muhahaha!!

and then hot cross buns were given out after assembly.. smthg to do with easter.
we ended up playing catch with them. haha.
could be considered a food fight except that there were still wrappers on the buns.
haha..
cedric ate it during 'extra geog' haha. he was like yelling "hot cross buns" and eating them at the same time. lolz. i tell u if every person who got a pink form for eating them in class,
the General Office may run out of them.
haha... like everyone was eating them in class lor..

actually, todae wasn't such a bad day.
humans(geog)
wasnt that bad actually. she just drones on and on while we copy..
haha at least i didn't feel like sleeping. :D
physics prac
haha. i cheated again. not exactly cheated, but i just didn't follow the procedure..
haha.. im such a skiver. :))
com sci(vid editing)
sucked TOTALLY SUCKED.
i was like doing everything...
xin zhan, vincent, karthik are such annoying ____i shan't swear cause i dun feel like it____ers.
:D
and then terry was like playing with his damn mp3, everyone was crowding around us.
he was like... im doing work!!! yeah rite. playing with ur stupid music.
work my____i shan't swear cause i dun feel like it____ !!!
-.-
mahdi was just being himself.
except today he wasn't being all uptight and all or like having wasabi up his nose.
he was trying to force he to chill out. xin zhan is lucky... if not for mahdi,
he wouldn't be dead so much, he'll be paralysed even in hell.
jerry
ok la. at least he wasn't annoying or smthg.. but he was like arguing with mahdi non-stop..
whadahell la... same grp also wanna argue.
but nvm la... at least trying to be understanding while i was sulking and doing EVERYTHING is quite nice... :)

and the rest of the day was bleah..

*sigh*

this is so annoying/fulfilling/irritating/wadeva.

oh yeah a poem..
wheeeee i didn't write this on the spot.
was supposed to cheer someone up..
in fact i made that person's day :D
haha

the eighth wonder

from the great wall of china
to egyptian pyramids
they all deserve praise
but nothing can be like ___ _____
the eighth wonder

nothing beats skittles
not even colour pencils
it will be a great honour
to be liked by the eighth wonder
___ _____
(___ must be happy!!)

her eyes
from the wrong angle
are piercing, like the cold of ice
but most of time
calming like the clime
and seemingly nice.

cheer up ___ _____
cause there can be no other
eighth wonder.

that's it for todae
haha im into LONG posts nowadays.. :D
and i know why todae didn't feel so bad..
there wasn't maths.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
man, i HATE that teacher..

the day maths made my day, cause there wasn;t any today!! :D
see yeah:P i feel so...
bleah

i still have no idea why.
so screwed up la..
-.-
its like.. life goes on fine but there always this thing annoying me.
it like TOTALLY sucks.

and.. yeah todae was founder's day..
had to sit on the hard floor of the hall for 2 hrs straight.
walaueh.. oh yeah, congrats jerry for getting top in higher chinese last yr. :D
haha. i can't rmbr whether u took the cert with two hands or one.
who cares anyway?
after that, i went to the track down there to watch d founder's day relay.
LAWRENCE OWNED THE SEC2 4x600!!
HAHA.
damn funny la. mahdi didn't even bother to sprint.
lolz.
and i didn't go trng todae.. cause.
er..
hmm..lets see..
im not competing?
uh.. that's not really a reason isit?
nvm lets change the subject.

I SAID LETS CHANGE THE SUBJECT!

ah.
i fell totally huGJHFKJGhbm,jGHjhg,JJ,gklK? GHKU%&^ikl97(^O)
makes sense?
it doesn;t make any to me either.
*sigh*

the day i still feel totally screwed up and
lawrence owned the 4x600m event. :D NO!!
why did'nt raikonnen get first!!
:(
haha
nvm he got third anyway.

im still in a TOTALLY djsfglargyufdlauljsh,gky378r86k state.
-.- HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!!

haha i feel high todae.
wonder why.

haha walaueh..

raikonen nvr get pole..

haha nvm massa got :D hahaha
13 17 96

haha
so slow.
mi dad said my body's like still tired.

the GOLD!!

muhahahaha

:D i ran 2.4km just now.
12.33.67
YAY!!!
haha im so happy with myself..
i almost died though..
i like felt like vomiting...
haha.
still, 12 plus!!!
woohoo!!

i just need to upkeep this and the GOLD is mine..
MUHAHAHAAHA.
:p i feel hurt, happy, revengeful, triumphant all at the same time.

WOW.

*sigh* _____name of teacher_____, you have just officially lost my respect.
well, you'll regret it. watch me.

before i start being more emo(tional)
*i tell u, i HATE that word even though it is ALMOST TOTALLY me.* *sigh*
lets talk abt me napha.

today i did me napha 5 stations.

uh.. lets see..

Standing Broad Jump
walaueh.. i only jump 202. suck la. srry liv. haha.
mr arul, me PE teacher, said i was pushing myself too hard.
well, couldn't say he was wrong...
i like slipped twice. FUCK!!

Sit-ups
not so bad.. did 44. yes jerry, 44. NOT 34. -.-
my backbone is like all RED..
bleah. there arelike red patches on every vertebrae. haha.. i wonder how i make smthg so simple and put in the word "vertebrae" haha

Sit and Reach
haha. i got glen to sit on me when i was stretching b4 i did this one..
it helped. in less than a minute, my head cld reach my knees :P
then when i did it...
i like relaxed.. my head was touching my knee and i wasn;t feeling ANY STRAIN.
i thought like i was screwed. abt 39 or smthg.
then i started stretching and pushing myself.
i heard everyone around me going "WOAH!!"
and when i got up, 48cm. hahahahahhahahhaaha
that was COOL..
then mr arul was like SO surprised that i didn't want to do again. (u usually have 2 tries)
i regretted not doing the second try cause i cld have beaten brandon and got top in class.
--> 49cm. ONE MORE CM. walaueh..

Inclined pull-ups
:))))
that abt sums it up.
yeah!! i did uh.. 25.
gd by my standards u know..
hahah. i think its a B or smthg.

Shuttle Run
haha. got 10.6 secs.
gd by my standards. :))

OK. now thart ____name of teacher____ part..

i was talking to vincent during maths..
then ____name of teacher____ saw us.
so she called me out to do a sum on the board with mahdi..
so i was like.. hmm seems a lot harder when its so right in front of you..
so i did the thing which she thought when i was talking to vin.. its some sorta change sign thingie.
then after that step, i went to expand to factors which i was not supposed to.
then she was like al so WAdeVA... and said...
(even i don't believe she would say that)
"you think u r smart enough so no need to listen in class"
WOAH. that hurt.

this is what i wanted to say:

a!u motherfucking chao jibai..
i did what u taught correctly right?
kaninabu mother fucking son of whore..
so when i fuck up that expansion thing u can anyhow say THAT isit?
its a motherfucking fucked up piece of personal attack.

this is what i said:
... (man! i have a good tolerance.)

then i shouted at karthik to SHUT (THE FUCK) UP. cause he was saying everything was wrong.
i put the marker down and walked back to my seat.

YES i was tearing ok?? now shaddup and lemme tell my story.

i can betch she was surprised at my reaction. thank god i just sat down
cause i may have screamed my head off at that short ass of a teacher..

then she contnd doing the sum la.

ok... now the fun part.
when she walked by,
i said i wanted to talk to her later.
but i just started rattling off at that precise moment.

here's what was in my head:
u fucking son of a bitch.
u DARE say that.
i did ,what u taught just now, correctly.
and u DARE say that..

here's what i said:
i did what you taught just now and what did u say?
that is a personal attack u know..
and im hurt. if that helps.

then she said:
ok. that was not a personal attack.. blah blah blah blah.
you know i wouldn't do that.. blah blah blah blah

here's what i wanted to say:
u fucking sonofabitch.
first u say THAT.
then u say it wasn't a personal attack.
fuck ur bloody mom ok??
who u trying to bluff?
cause if im in on the joke.
IT LAME.

here's what i said:
yes yes uh huh.. etc etc.

OK thats it.

its not over.
U r gonna pay mrs khoo.
U R GONNA PAY.

the day i cried.
lost respect for that sonofawhore.
and never knew my mind was SO vulgar.
haha.

YOU ARE GOING TO PAY.
WATCH ME. i dun know wats wrong with me...
im like... can't pay attention in class,
trng dat time, my mind just isn't with me,
in the bus i can't even fall asleep like i usually do...
even if im not doing anything in particular, my mind is just like drifting around.
im starting not to know how to do simple maths..
can't concentrate during physics...
walking to buy food in canteen dat time, my mind is like not with me.
so fucked up la. i think i know what it is, but it feels just different.
its like damn irritating. *sigh*

and.. even if i fight and DON'T take flight,
how am i supposed to come out tops against them??
i really am fucked up.

I Really Don't Know

Pondering over
___ _____...
When i stood,
when i sat,
even when i slept.

It was not "To be or not to be"
but i felt like a dog with fleas,
just tell i thought, " WAIT. NO!"
i still really don't know.

Chased by many,
loved by all,
but who will be her final call?
Should i just stand aside or join the brawl?
___ was in her mind all the time,
while i just stood there no matter the clime.
' said ___ was nice,
huh? i thought he was as cold as ice?
My chances were as certain as dice.

Fight or take flight?
That is my plight.
I think i should go;
but then again, i really don't know....

i m so fucked up. haha.
changed my skin again.
didn't really like the last one.
anyway this one is nice!!

uh... oh yeah.
my back somer tuck TOTALLY SUCKS.
how the hell did i lose it???
*sigh*
-.-
i hope tmrw's one not so bad.

oh yeah.

CONGRATS WEI HAO FOR GETTING FENCING TEAM GOLD AND
BEING A QUATER-FINALIST FOR INDIVIDUAL.

HAHA.

gd for yeh.

uh.. lets see what there is to talk abt...

ok

i have no idea.

see yeah all.

i actually wanted to post a poem, but no time.. :(

okies. stupid day today...
maths was damn boring stupid easy indices crap..
almost fell asleep during maths period time...
im like falling asleep all the time now la..
i have no idea why.

chinese damn boring again.
*sigh*

i spent my recess doing a mth ws that wasn't due today.
bloody genius... damn hungry somemore la..

guitar lessons...
uh... i miss the drawing/colouring/scupture part of art.
i totally suck at guitar la. only know e minor and g chord.
im supposed to also know c chord, d7, a minor.
annoying. haha... the guitar teacher surprised that our class sing so well.
he said we might as well start a choir...
and im enjoying the singing more than the guitar part.
feels so fun and fulfilling..haven't sang in a long time...
haha.

trng.
sucked. gerald was damn annoying and i kept on landing on my head for d back somer,
if i do @ d tumble track.. stupid. and now my legs like, forgot how to tuck. whadafuck.

and now im like bored of blogging a sad post.

the day i kept on falling asleep and found my like for singing again. haha.
-.- i give up.

routine = think abt it outside the poem's context
hmm..
4th verse, third line.
eyes = look in the mirror
hmm..

it easy keeping a secret,
but keeping a secret from the secret itself?
now that's a whole different picture.

there all done.

if u don't geddit, the answer's in any mirror. just go take a look. this one's new, not a repeat.

Behind the Scenes

Man today has made many things,
the sellphone, TV and other really cool bling;
ibook, XBOX,
oh, they make me sing.

All made of many parts,
like the various muscles of our hearts.
Neither can work without the other
that will be suck a bother!

Like a ship sailing to port,
with many passengers on board.
With just one bolt missing,
the whole ship'll start sinking
and everyone will have to jump overboard.

Its the little things that
make the big ones.
What you see is only a small fraction
of the entire operation.
So remember next time,
that the small things do count,
even though they are worth just a dime. Many atime, one needs someting to support oneself,
it may not be big, nor small,
bright, dark or come in a ball,
and neither have to be found on a shelf.

Take a simple flame for example,
fuel and air must be ample,
sooner or later, it will go out
and for fuel and air, it will start to shout,
definitely without a doubt.

Certain things are naturally nice,
rice maybe, but certainly not mice;
little do people know,
that, its not the cold
that makes snow,
but the emotions within him or her
which make some things just so enjoyable
like the warmth of summer.

Its your gaze that make time fly,
so fast, i wished time never passed by;
but stay and let me admire your beautiful eyes,
while the rest of the world just hops on with time.

That day, i got a look and a smile,
made me so happy, i wished i could stop time and keep that moment in a steel file;
at first i was just hopping on together with time and the rest,
felt like any other daily routine,
like brushing teeth and keeping clean,
until i was told it was quiet a scene.

But my friends always said i had a pinch of pessimism,
i though i was being realistic
but anyway, i couldn't blame them;
i thought, maybe it was a random look,
for i wasn't that low,
but you could never know, cause its never by the book.

Anyway, as i said before,
it doesn't depend on whether its an eyesore,
i don't care,
i mean, it wasn't exactly a bore;
the thing is, it meant a lot,
gave me the courage to fight,
with hell of might.

Now that's somethin' ain't it?

i posted this due to an encore request :P haha i got NAPHA on mon..
i think im gonna run later..
stupid la.. i wanna get gold again. like last yr like dat..
i haven't ran 2.4 since.. um... er... lets see.. somewhere in nov??
hahaha sure die lor..
somemore my back still pain.
AND I SHLDN'T HAVE DONE froggies with my juniors on fri,
now thighs damn sore.
have to stretch like every other hour..
*sigh*
my standing broad jumps sucks!! i deproved lor. 190 only. cld do 2 plus in jan..
walaueh..

the day i sure hope i feel fit...
so that i won't die running tmrw.
i think i shld write a will, or buy life insurance or smthg..

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you are patient,
you are kind,
you'll never leave our minds,
you can hurt in the behind.

you are tender,
you are strong,
you would make a good steak,
and could last forever.

you are pleasure,
you are pain,
you're about giving,
and not what we stand to gain.

you are honest,
you are trust,
truth here is a must,
stop thinking about all that lust.

you are beautiful,
you are sexy,
sometimes you're so petty,
nothing but messy.

you are nowhere,
you are everywhere,
people are always looking for you,
surprise them, that's what you always do.

you are everything,
you are nothing,
no one could ever find the right words for you;
i know it's not nice,
but your name will have to suffice,
so... what are you?