Monday, March 05, 2007 8:01 pm
i worked so hard in sec1.... slogged through the fucking trng with dogged determination.... remembering i did not want to lose mi default place in Gym...
i got used to it.... wasn't really accepted, but got along fine.. thankfully most of mi friens forgot mi abrupt 'intrusion' into the CCA....
had fun, got past the straight jump barrier.
i had fun wif terry, both of us going thru the various gym problems together....
end of sec1 came and i mostly learnt lyk, abt two thirds of the routine.....
sec2 came, was quite all rite... we were all excited abt juniors...
aft CNY, we lost a lot of form.... trng got fucked up all over again....
coach started being a fatherfucker again....
jian cha was like killable....
i started feeling really stressed abt trng... NOW, life = a living hell
nanyang appeared in the picture, they
weren't exactly "wow-u-r-so-hot!!!!" , but it added some fun at least.... comp wif them was like funny, AND, how the fuck does ezra know?????!?!?!? it can't be that obvious rite?!?!?!
AnYwAy, now im like sick all the fucking time, i dun even noe whether im imagining myself not feeling well.....
THEN, came that faithful day where coach split the whole C div into 2. i got into the 'competing grp' i sorta kicked terry out.... i felt SO bad... i mean when i was sick earlier he got him, but now he's like, OUT. i asked him how he felt, he said he was too happy to get rid of all dat comp. stress..... i dun really believe him, but nvr mind... i moved along.
now im afraid of competing....
i mean, WHAT THE MOTHERFUCK!?!?!?!??
THERE IS SOME SERIOUS MASSIVE FUCKERY GOIN ON INSIDE ME....
STRESS CAN KILL I TELL U, EVERYTHING HAS A BREAKING POINT, I FEAR MINE IS NEAR....