hello

2009-11-01T12:12:00.000+08:00

i have moved. ask me for the new link.

2009-10-11T13:18:00.000+08:00

--
We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we’re dying.

kris allen and the script got it allll wrong.
gotta mug like we're dying laaa.

2009-10-10T16:40:00.001+08:00

going through four hours of maths is a rather enlightening experience.
i'm still tempted to open a tumblr.

2009-10-09T22:33:00.002+08:00

wise men aim for the moon and the stars.

wiser men pick a comfortable spot on the fluffy clouds.

2009-10-08T21:12:00.002+08:00

on another note.

someday you'll hit someone you love,
and she'll walk away no matter what you say.
someday you'll pull a prank,
that turns out to be more harm than fun.
someday you'll tell a lie,
that'll pull your leg and make you fall.
someday you'll understand this lesson,
but the time would've passed to learn.

2009-10-08T12:26:00.003+08:00

[edit!] haley williams can singgggg! click! [/edit!]

honestly i don't feel like blogging.
and somehow tumblr htmls seem more pleasing
than darn boring blogskins.
but heh this blog has lasted so long.
trust me to feel sentimental over a chunk of coded numbers.
LOL. heh. hahaha.

anyway, i have about 2 and a half weeks left.
and since vjc open house is tmrw and my weekends are
well known to have peak inefficiency,
so i technically have a few days to grab myself together,
and then two weeks to studieeee.

i hope the vjc open house is insightful. or whatever.
maybe a passably good use of time. heh, i could hope for that.

i am officially in a state of lazy-stasis.

andddd. "studieeee" is such a cool way of saying "study".
because there's the word "dieeee" in it lol.

2009-10-06T21:49:00.002+08:00

and i'm on my knees looking for the answer.
are we human or are we dancers?
~the killers

i have no idea of the background of the last line,
it's supposedly some really cheem old quote or
something, but from my perspective, it sounds poetic
and so darn cool heehee :D

2009-10-06T09:46:00.001+08:00

i may not have an idea, but i've got a dream.
and if all else fails, i have a gut feeling.

2009-10-05T22:31:00.001+08:00

reminder http://axddl.info/smf/index.php?topic=105.msg657#msg657

2009-10-05T21:14:00.002+08:00

i wanna watch (500) days of summer!
looks cool heh. and the tagline is hilarious XD

\Boy meets girl. Boy falls in love. Girl doesn't.
This is not a love story. This is a story about love.\

she's got you high and you don't even know it!
lalalalala :D

2009-10-04T15:36:00.000+08:00

when there is a will, there is a way.
urghh.

2009-10-02T22:29:00.002+08:00

leaving a table unblemished is like leaving
a blank canvas empty.

anyway. this is what i wrote on the star.
more coherent then i thought it would be hahaha.
\
I listen a little differently,
less pride & more empathy.
I see a little differently,
less contrast & more similarity.
I think a little differently,
less me & more community.
I act a little differently,
benefiting others and not just me.
I feel a little differently,
stronger and together with everybody.
/

with people crying like taps out there,
being stoic is truly the safest option.

<3 SJI '09

2009-10-01T20:31:00.002+08:00

everyone turns, the whole hall alight
with sudden anticipation,
faces unaware of the sound;
joseph's in the limelight.

drenched t-shirts on flaming hearts,
houses reverberating with the spirit,
four colours of the same light,
son and fathers, united in the dark.

the crazy things we'd do together,
the pranks we'd pull on one another,
the teachers we drive insane,
they love us more than what's shown in plain.

it's been an eventful four years,
hail hail.

2009-09-29T21:26:00.002+08:00

if you ever...

felt bummed, then decided to drop all the work and go to sleep
and wake up to realise that your problems are still there...

sigh.

2009-09-29T17:49:00.002+08:00

i started five poems and they're all still pending in my head.
sometimes i wish people could read my mind.
help me decipher all the bullshit in it.

i wish upon a shooting star,
that love was enough to bring me far,
that desire wasn't so easy
and effort wasn't so difficult,
that needs weren't subjective
and something greater was universal,
that feelings weren't so emotional
and thoughts were more forthcoming,
that the small things aren't easily overlooked,
and the bigger things knew when to stay in the shadows,
that words were slightly slower
and thoughts always won the sprints event,
that friends aren't so easily unnoticed,
and enemies didn't catch our attention,
that people cared less about what they gained,
and worried more about what other lost,
that people forget what they don't have
and cherish what they posses forever,
that people bothered to look around them
and realised that greedy goals aren't everything,
that...

well done michael. after excreting all that, you still
have no idea why you feel like crap. and no, i don't
giveashit that that wasn't a metabolic waste product.

2009-09-27T22:29:00.001+08:00

oh little cubes watch them go,
six paths they can flow,
truly what determines them?
eenie, meenie, myynie, mo.

2009-09-27T11:11:00.003+08:00

BRAND NEW EYES FTW!

i totally <3 the album.

and ignorance has replaced supermassive blackhole
as my alarm in the morning. hahaha. i woke up and
was confused lol. "queer noisy shit..."

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're heading for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize...
~paramore ; turn it off

2009-09-24T21:16:00.002+08:00

it's an aching emptiness,
that you left on the sidewalk,
like melting snowflakes,
and many more things pretty.

it's a hollow pain,
that you stamped on the postcard,
from a land faraway,
and your thoughts further.

it's a damp chill,
that you shed on my face,
like silent screams on a holiday,
fallen walls leaving a doorway.

it's a scorching need,
that you burned me with,
welding them together,
with bits of delusional bliss.

it's a quiet night,
that you left behind,
dancing stars
and a different moon.

___________________________

this is bad. urgh.

2009-09-24T21:10:00.001+08:00

this used to be a private place.
SIGH. anyway i can still post cryptic poems. muahahaha.
suckers.
.
.
urgh.

sexy song.
paramore; the only exception

When i was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And cursed at the wind
He broke his own heart
And i watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day i promised
Id never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe i know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And i've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk, but

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know your leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Oh---

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing.
Oh, And Im on my way to believing.

_______________________________

coincidentally, it's the exceptions that are everything.

2009-09-23T21:29:00.001+08:00

mirrors on ice,
makes me despise,
how beautiful you are,
because we're apart too far.

-there don't complain ahaha.

2009-09-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

FOURTEEN POINTS FOR PRELIMS.
woots.

if preelim dun keel you, preelim oni make you stronguh.

ftw.

2009-09-21T12:54:00.000+08:00

bold the things which are true.

I‘ve never watched Titanic.
I’ve never read Pride and Prejudice.
I’ve never been drunk.
I’ve never played Laser Tag.
I’ve never skipped in a public place.
I’ve never sung at an inappropriate moment.
I’ve never cried over a movie.
I’ve never cried reading a book.
I’ve never cried while watching a TV show.
I’ve never owned a music player.
I’ve never made a Twitter.
I’ve never read anything by Charles Dickens.
I’ve never skipped school.
I’ve never owned a rabbit.
I’ve never sung solo in front of a crowd of 100+ people.
I’ve never played Guitar Hero.
I’ve never had more than four siblings.
I’ve never jumped off a swing.
I’ve never been camping.
I’ve never watched an episode of QI.
I’ve never watched a Heath Ledger movie.
I’ve never watched High School Musical.
I’ve never made a sibling cry.
I’ve never stolen anything.
I’ve never broken the law.
I’ve never jumped in the sea fully clothed.
I’ve never passed on a chain letter.
I’ve never met a celebrity.
I’ve never written fan fiction.
I’ve never gone scuba diving.
I’ve never dyed my hair.
I’ve never had a tattoo.
I’ve never watched WWE on TV.
I’ve never taken part in a sports contest.
I’ve never been to a football match.
I’ve never danced to a Michael Jackson song.
I’ve never watched a sunset.
I’ve never played a musical instrument.
I’ve never sky dived.
I’ve never eaten fish.
I’ve never read Twilight.
I’ve never punched someone.
I’ve never swam with a dolphin.
I’ve never broken a bone.
I’ve never danced well.
I’ve never been arrested.
I’ve never owned a Playstation Three.
I’ve never watched a Batman movie.
I’ve never sang at a Karaoke Night

I’ve never been to the snow

I’ve never been in love

2009-09-17T22:27:00.002+08:00

if you have nothing,
you have nothing to lose
and everything to gain.

but having nothing,
what can i give,
what can i put into faith?

because i assure you,
if faith is really all i need,
i'll give anything and everything till i bleed.

2009-09-12T15:53:00.002+08:00

nasty letters and mushy notes,
silent comedies and giggles over nothing,
frostily joyful evenings,
together quiet, on the warm couch.

faded jeans beside your bed,
pillow's laden with sweat,
you wanna see the sky,
ceiling's feeds familiar images to your head.

ericsson whining for juice,
you can't seem to hear it,
above the loud brawling,
or falling below it?

i can't believe i'm here again,
thought i heard wrong,
pain comes full-circle,
hurts just as bad on this end.

these words can't be coming from me,
should be on the floor writhing in agony,
not letting this gentleman take over
and paint pictures only you want to see.

you say you've broken your first heart,
the gentleman breaks the pause,
while i turn and wonder,
how transparent i really was.

____________________________________

urgh.

2009-09-12T14:40:00.004+08:00

eyes on fire,
hearts alight,
angel of desire,
steal my plight.

short poems ftw.

[edit]
"well i've officially broken a heart."
"what was mine? plastic?"
[/edit]

2009-09-11T21:39:00.001+08:00

this is what you would call mental constipation.
no will. less way.

2009-09-10T22:19:00.003+08:00

well since i'm feeling all..
well you know. i hope you know.
ah whatever. anywayyyy,

GOOD LISTENERS ARE UNDER-APPRECIATED.
i really think so.
lets look this from a different perspective.
you see everyone loves a great speaker, how they mesmerise the audience with
their words and charisma. everyone loves a hot chick/dude, with bombs/eyes to
die for. everyone loves a popular person, a well-connected person, an outgoing
person and whatever form the star of the show may be.
(i say this from the perspective of a party/large open conversation)

but you see, who notices good listeners? who notices the quiet girl who pays
respectful interest in everyone around? who sees the nice guy who hangs around
with a tear-laden shoulder? they don't steal the thunder, so does anyone hear them?
they're the people who work behind the scenes and keep the conversation going,
even going as far as overcoming the barrier of silence to add a comment or two.

even in a smaller group, with a handful of people,
there are some that just listen with honest enthusiasm in their eyes, while others
take the stage and spill their thoughts. do you notice him or her?

if it's between two people, does the person dominating the conversation know what's
going on? any reciprocation towards that great friend for listening?

it's a sad world out there.

2009-09-09T22:30:00.001+08:00

new skin.
same me.

2009-09-08T22:32:00.002+08:00

why do people ask me such things.
is it so hard to tell how much i yearn to be in their position?
how much i'd give to get an iota of what they're blessed with.

tell me dude up there,
why in the universe do i have to help people go through such things,
while it leaves me tired, pained, weary and in pieces.

what the fuck did i do?
huh?
seriously, if you have a plan for me,
i'm sure hoping the good stuff doesn't happen after the damned credits.

because honestly i don't mind helping people about such things,
but who is gonna give me help?

i could try asking you, but it is beyond me how you're going to find a way
to tell me the answer. just don't creep me out hehe.

or maybe like you know i missing something.
some really big obvious reason or thing staring at me.
well lemme think....

1. maybe i didn't get over it.
2. maybe i missed something she said.

okay that's about it. don't see how that helps ANYTHING.

heh i may seem percpetive, but sometimes i just miss EVERYTHING.

2009-08-29T20:17:00.000+08:00

testing testing.

2009-08-18T16:56:00.000+08:00

rah rah rah.
if studying were like running.
up the gears, baby.

2009-08-12T22:05:00.000+08:00

need new skin...

2009-08-10T16:30:00.001+08:00

grr. if i wasn't sick, this weather is perfect for running T.T

2009-08-08T23:13:00.002+08:00

this song is great.
like really. and it's so almost totally changed my mood.
yep, that's not an easy thing to do. boohoo.

Almost Lovers ~ A Fine Frenzy

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

2009-08-04T17:25:00.001+08:00

from now on, i shall write retarded-ly amusing hypothetical letters to random hypothetical people and have lotsa fun at it.

2009-08-02T00:59:00.003+08:00

hey hey you you.
i know.
this blog is as alive as the chair you're sitting on.
sigh. what to do. honestly, the buzz has died.

anyway maybe i'll end up finding a use for this, some other time.
like to practise my typing speed and maybe something more useful,
like typing stuff here that i don't want anyone to read.
cause after all, i doubt any-frickin-body reads this.

anyway a boy can always dream.
plus the awesomely great imagination helps.

Dear stunningly-beautiful-girl-out-there,
i know you're reading this, because i'm psychic with people i find
so darn attractive. honestly, if you ask me it's useful,
but it sorta burns out when i have no idea whose mind i'm
hearing. well bet you heard that before. hahahaha. bad joke.
anyway on to greater things,
like you for example, i could go on raving about how
smoking you look in that top and tiny shorts and maybe
i'll even write another blind-sighted poem, like i always end up doing.
but no, why don't you just tell me the hell who you are,
and then we'll meet in heaven.

ah the corny diction. well i'm kinda good, don't you admit?

lots of silenced lust and love, of course,
the-anonymous-blogger-whom-you're-so-attracted-to.

2009-07-21T20:34:00.001+08:00

ran 4.6 km ystd. 24 mins. shiok man.

2009-06-28T21:42:00.001+08:00

Dawn's breaking,
but we're already late,
chance's not worth taking,
can't leave it up to fate.

Little kids, recess's over,
there's lots of work to be done,
it's not time to duck and cover,
the final song hasn't been sung.

Ignore the signs,
we've got what it takes,
most of it's in your mind,
use your head, for God's sake.

Leave out all the what ifs and maybes,
sooner or later you'll fall into these hellish gates,
playtime's over ladies,
go on, step in, bet against fate.

2009-06-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

New In Town ~ Little Boots

Heard you're new in town
Want someone to show you down
Well no one knows this place just quite like me
Well I don't hang with the crowd
Where I go were dressing down
I'll take you where the music plays for free

So don't rely on people you meet
Coz no one is safe in these streets

I'm gonna take you out tonight
I'm gonna make you feel alright
I don't have a lot of money but I'll be fine
No I don't have a penny but I'll show you a good time
I'm gonna take you out tonight
I'm gonna make you feel alright
I don't have a lot of money but I'll be fine
No i don't have a penny but I'll show you a real good time

So what do you think so far
Is it all you're hoping for
Does it live up to your every dream
Or do we disappoint
Well you made the choice
When you wake up you can hear the scream

So don't rely on people you meet
Coz no one is safe in these streets

I'm gonna take you out tonight
I'm gonna make you feel alright
I don't have a lot of money but I'll be fine
No I don't have a penny but I'll show you a good time
I'm gonna take you out tonight
I'm gonna make you feel alright
I don't have a lot of money but I'll be fine
No i don't have a penny but I'll show you a real good time

Coz I know how it feels to be alone
When strangers only make you feel the cold
You never ever felt so far from home
You never felt so far from home

I'm gonna take you out tonight
I'm gonna make you feel alright
I don't have a lot of money but I'll be fine
No I don't have a penny but I'll show you a good time
I'm gonna take you out tonight
I'm gonna make you feel alright
I don't have a lot of money but I'll be fine
No i don't have a penny but I'll show you a real good time

2009-06-18T21:46:00.001+08:00

run to get away.
run to breathe.
run to feel.
run to live.

2009-06-17T22:21:00.001+08:00

i'm a great liar. no really.
and it kinda sucks in a way, i lie badly on purpose.
like wth man, that is retarded even for a prolific liar.

and uhm where the hell can i use it? acting is lame,
following a script is retarded. hmm i'm more uhm freelance.

hahahaha. so what makes you think i'm not lying?
psych XD

2009-06-16T17:24:00.001+08:00

there are people born with everything.
there are also people born with barely anything.

and then, there's me. no idea what the hell he's born with.

2009-06-08T22:58:00.000+08:00

you know.
it's been a long half a year.
i still don't get you.

2009-06-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

Each day is a gift,
not a given right,
look at my mountain of plight,
surely you get the drift.

Cherish the moment,
live life to the fullest,
go on and be adamant,
tell me no one had angst.

Life is hard,
death is easy,
keep sending the birthday cards,
we're not brave, just greedy.

Look me in the eye,
say you'll like anything i buy,
hey kid, want a blender?
some days i just wanna return to sender.

2009-05-26T21:57:00.002+08:00

i hate when people think wrongly of me.
it's just really annoying.
like you know i'm a benchmark for doing badly in tests and exams,
being the alleged physically weakest one around,
so erm basically sucking big time for everything.

thanks, friends.

2009-05-21T20:43:00.002+08:00

i don't wanna touch the sky,
can barely feel the ground below my feet,
it feels like you all are above,
i don't know what to feel anymore.

frail arms struggle for the stars,
from here the clouds look really huge,
chasing the wind across the ground,
the earth being their playground.

_________________________

i can't finish the poem. told you i need to run.

2009-05-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

i need to run. seriously.
it's driving me insane.

2009-05-14T23:21:00.001+08:00

For a Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic

2009-05-10T17:08:00.000+08:00

you are patient,
you are kind,
you'll never leave our minds,
you can hurt in the behind.

you are tender,
you are strong,
you would make a good steak,
and could last forever.

you are pleasure,
you are pain,
you're about giving,
and not what we stand to gain.

you are honest,
you are trust,
truth here is a must,
stop thinking about all that lust.

you are beautiful,
you are sexy,
sometimes you're so petty,
nothing but messy.

you are nowhere,
you are everywhere,
people are always looking for you,
surprise them, that's what you always do.

you are everything,
you are nothing,
no one could ever find the right words for you;
i know it's not nice,
but your name will have to suffice,
so... what are you?

2009-05-07T17:24:00.000+08:00

can you feel the pressure now,
we're better of, without you.

2009-05-01T15:16:00.002+08:00

faith. religion.
hmm.
it's a very delicate topic.

well. i'm only bringing up the subject because,
1. the house is cold war all over again,
2. mid years start in five days,
3. i've only touched four subjects. touched ,
4. and well, people pray alot when they're in deep shit
5. i'm not one to pray. haha, i believe in too many laws of physics
6. that's probably pretty stupid, but then again.
7. anyway the thing is i need a pretty solid miracle.

so have faith in what?

2009-04-27T22:41:00.001+08:00

these walls.

well it's called pushing limits for a reason.

2009-04-25T13:30:00.001+08:00

argh. must... study.

2009-04-21T21:31:00.000+08:00

i am not in a good mood.
rah.

2009-04-19T21:58:00.001+08:00

if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

[edit]
i'm happy.
really happy.
ha! determination triumphs.
[/edit]

2009-04-18T22:36:00.000+08:00

zzz going ta study.
cya.

2009-04-17T21:30:00.001+08:00

argh i can't afford to be lazy.

2009-04-16T23:02:00.001+08:00

i regret alot.
i regret being a coward.
i regret putting myself above my choices.
i regret thinking we had a chance.
i may regret writing this, but at least it's out of my system.

damnit. it's been so long and yet..

2009-04-13T20:39:00.000+08:00

i should just focus and work towards it.

2009-04-11T15:14:00.000+08:00

for one whole day yesterday,
i had no internet.
well thankfully there's always a teevee.
whew.

2009-04-07T19:57:00.001+08:00

many things have changed.
and in a way, i think i'm happy.

of course there is eng and chin oral real soon,
but when could stuff like that ever darken my doorway?
hahahahaha.

crashing an investiture sounds fun and impossible.
perrrrfect :D

2009-04-03T18:32:00.002+08:00

the sun's still gonna rise,
i'll be sleeping soundly,
with the thoughts of you running free,
you're not worth the price.

now really, what was i supposed to do?
acknowledge and walk to you?
oh alright, i'll admit,
my heart still flipped abit,
but i ain't a fool no more.

it was a hell of a fight,
in ways more than one,
i shouldn't have let you out of sight,
maybe love died, but where was the fun?

oh, get a grip.
queue up and take a seat,
though the booth will always be empty,
sort it out yourself and be happy.

you were once everything,
the word's spreading,
i'm voting for 'nothing';
you don't have a place in my life,
the sun's still gonna rise.

2009-04-02T18:25:00.001+08:00

i'm proud of myself.
fuck caring so much.
fuck it.

on a cleaner note, i don't care anymore.
all the better.

2009-03-31T21:24:00.002+08:00

tomorrow will mark a good day.
no matter how tired i am,
no matter how badly class goes,
no matter how many teachers scold me,
i'll be seeing you.

and i won't ever flinch.

2009-03-30T23:27:00.001+08:00

is bored and erm.
rah.

2009-03-29T13:55:00.002+08:00

run, run keep on running.
maybe if i run far away enough, no one can hear me.

2009-03-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

today has been a weird day.
technically, it was yesterday.
argh.

2009-03-27T23:05:00.003+08:00

mo and the middle finger
sort of go hand in hand.
hahahaha. pun intended.

2009-03-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

ah. since life is so boring,
i'll wait it out.
and in the mean time, i'll study.

2009-03-25T23:20:00.001+08:00

i am pissed with the world.
okay fine, not the whole world.
the people who are just blind to the whole book and cover and judging thing.
argh i'm incoherent when i'm pissed. great.

2009-03-23T23:31:00.001+08:00

and so it begins again.
homework,
noisy house,
and the rest of the world treating me like a fool.
wheeeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-03-22T22:55:00.002+08:00

in one hour, it'll be the next day,
and it'll be the first day of term2.
and you know, there are many changes to be made.
and a lot of effort and discipline will be the needed.
anyway talking about that. i found a scrap of paper
with another poem on it. wrote it during maths.

Time

It still seems dark,
but somewhere the sun has risen.
A bank has opened,
and it's the beginning of a new day.

Everyone gets an equal share,
a regular supply of indefinite gold,
one of intangible currency;
till Reaper knocks on your door
when you're really old.

Sometimes we pay gold unknowingly,
be it sleeping or procrastinating,
but like all responsible people would feel,
money can always be well spent.

As it passes,
things can grow
and surely die;
rivers will flow
and birds, fly.
The bank gives to everyone
neither dollars nor dimes,
but Father time.

2009-03-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

on high places standing tall,
thought the bridges we built would never fall;
surely what we had should suffice,
little did we know the sacrifice.

I love you, you said that too,
loved me, you used to;
I gave you my all,
but you turned and let me fall.

I lost myself to you,
but when you walked out,
I was still in two.
Pretty face and brown hair
and those deep blue eyes,
now cold like ice,
lost in those deep blue eyes.

_______________________________

heh. i have to write about something else.

2009-03-18T11:29:00.000+08:00

new skin! woots.
ahahaha the guitar solo in fix you is awesome.

2009-03-17T19:47:00.002+08:00

it's not everyday you stop talking to someone altogether.
i don't think i'm sad. but uh it just feels weird.
you know.
it's not everyday you stop talking to someone.

2009-03-15T12:16:00.001+08:00

i'm getting bored of this skin.
oh ahaha. i need motivation to study too.
haha.

2009-03-12T22:22:00.001+08:00

sometimes when you want to talk to someone,
but you can predict their exact reaction,
it sort of defeats the purpose of talking to make yourself feel better.
now what!?

2009-03-11T22:37:00.001+08:00

ah. i need to study. sigh i plan to finish the holiday homework early,
so that i can start mugging the TWENTY FOUR chapters for geog.
ouch.

2009-03-09T21:51:00.001+08:00

there is like no peace at home. none.
talk about a conducive environment.

i want to explode.

2009-03-08T13:37:00.003+08:00

i finally over this wishy washy cough like thing i had.
i know, so much for a biology student :D

anyway CTs were pretty much crap. besides the surprising EIGHTY for physics,
everything else is pretty much terribly usual, or usually terrible.
in this case, they both mean the same thing.
hahahaha. damnit. i need to find a place to study.
cause studying at home from like ten onwards, till the next morning is not healthy.
like three hours of sleep a day is... BAD. no duh.
five is okay. i'm averaging that. and uh, i'm not THAT tired.

then again, many things aren't healthy.
like going to school in a bus-full of sharks.

oh yea! the thing i wanted to say, haha since i'm finally wellll again.
i went to run. hohohho eleven twenty. awesome.

2009-03-04T00:21:00.003+08:00

because you don't see me...
who ever knew i was sitting there,
i could've been anywhere,
but no, no one failed chemistry,
the subjects too darn easy,
'hope you don't fall asleep,
while i'm a subject of mockery.

because if you're surprised...
i'll know why;
you don't know the real me,
and i'm not trying to make a plea,
if it's really all about the grades,
then i'll always be at the back of the line,
i know i'm better than how the system's made,
don't worry, i'm just fine.

because if you don't know me...
i don't see why i care,
it's beyond me why i still try,
life isn't fair,
but don't push it,
i'm not gonna cry,
not gonna shed a tear over you gits.

2009-03-01T21:43:00.001+08:00

Woah Oh (Me vs Everyone) ~ Forever The Sickest Kids

I candy coat and cover everything that I'm still hiding underneath.
It's been a long time. It's been a long time.
A thousand faces looking up at me
hands are pointing ceiling oh what a feeling.
I've got friends in highly low places
I'll stand up push it and push it up, can't afford to lose now.
I've got friends in highly low places
I'll go inside when I wanna party, grab a girl and dance (don't touch me).

Whoa oh whoa whoa oh
Why do I put myself in these situations
Whoa oh whoa whoa oh
I keep pushing myself even though I can't take it at all

Girl, who taught you how to move like that?
At this pace your at you're going way to fast.
I, I saw you from across the room
It's me versus every guy it's your choice you choose.

I've got friends in highly low places
It's been a long time, it's been a long time
and maybe baby you can rise above the rest and meet me yeah.

Whoa oh whoa whoa oh
Why do I put myself in these situations
Whoa oh whoa whoa oh
I keep pushing myself even though I can't take it at all

Whoa oh whoa whoa oh
Why do I put myself in these situations
Whoa oh whoa whoa oh
I keep pushing myself even though I can't take it at all

You're worth losing my self esteem
Your clever words mean nothing more to me than a lot I've heard in a movie
you're worth losing my, losing my, losing my self esteem
you're not worth putting myself in these situations

Whoa oh whoa whoa oh
Why do I put myself in these situations
Whoa oh whoa whoa oh
I keep pushing myself even though I can't take it at all

2009-02-25T23:24:00.003+08:00

i'll admit. i have sworn more in one sentence.
but man, what's up with tests and fucking unreasonable teachers.

2009-02-23T18:30:00.000+08:00

Run ~ Snow Patrol

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

2009-02-21T17:00:00.003+08:00

i've come to a conclusion.
academics don't prove you're smart,
they just show how hard working you are.

as such if you're brilliant and darn lazy.
whoops, the rest of the class thinks you're a dumbshit.
cause academics are massively flawed.
it's incredible how all things just don't work out right?

2009-02-20T21:45:00.002+08:00

hahahahahaha.
i am going high.
and i have made a decision.
on ss.

we have to study diplomacy and deterrence.
i picked diplomacy.
hahaha, it's not like we have a choice.
it's not like i give a shit about ss :D

2009-02-17T21:22:00.001+08:00

surge in current,
wires flair,
gold heats up slightly,
more wires flair,
electrons buzz,
.
.
.
.

BOOM.

2009-02-15T23:45:00.001+08:00

Here are the rules - post this list on your profile (in Notes) replacing my answers with yours. Tag 25 people to do the same thing. If I tagged YOU, it's because I want to know more about YOU!

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
the archangel. HAHAHA no one luh.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
er. quite long ago i think.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
yep, when it looks nice.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAL?
huh?

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
sure. three of them, two girls and a boy. i'm fifteen by the way.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
maybe? maybe not?

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
duh.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
yeap.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
nope. but i'd probably get dizzy and fall off the darn height if i looked down.

10. WHAT DO YOU CARRY WITH YOURSELF ALL THE TIME?
the mo expression.

11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
milo balls! (ahahaha sounds so wrong)

12. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
nope.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
chocolateee!!!

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
their expression/behaviour.

15. RED OR PINK...
reddd.

16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
being darn lazy sometimes.

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
don't tell you :D

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
yes. i suffered, so should they XD

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
brown. none.

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
who i am hates who i've been - reliant k

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
white

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
hahaha. depends who they're on.

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
vladimir kalashnikov, my friendly arms dealer.

25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
uh huh. cool dude.

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
soccer/tennis/badminiton/billiards/formulaONE

27. HAIR COLOR?
really dark brown.

28. EYE COLOR?
not so dark brown.

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
nope. the thought of sticking something in my eye is freaky.

30. FAVORITE FOOD?
woah. alot!

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
happy endings.

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
err. dark knight. at home. for the fifth time.

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
not wearing any.

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
neither.

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
both hahaha XD

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
sms

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
emails.

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
EARTH: OUr Home Geography Sec 4

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
a thin layer of dirt. mouse pads feel weird. microsoft optical mouse la.

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
bourne idenity (ftw!)

42. FAVORITE SOUND(S)
ringtone XD

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
neither.

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
heh. no idea.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
absolutely. saying anything, but making it sound sick and perverted.

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
thomson medical.

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
those i tagged.

48. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
time travel.

49. WHAT DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
being a kid with a carefree life. oh and playing pool!

50. WHAT LITTLE THINGS MAKES YOU HAPPY?
sincere little things.

2009-02-14T16:45:00.002+08:00

today, lets try and be happy,
it's the fourteenth on February,
put aside all that matters not,
put a smile on your face
because it's love that matters lots.

wrap your presents and plan your dates,
call your special one and make her day;
chocolates and dinner at a fancy place,
if you're lucky she'll like the tickets to see coldplay.

grab a crummy shirt and a pair of jeans,
screw your hair and rush out the gate,
get there by any means,
be up all night drunk with your mates.

maybe you could be a little nicer,
make your bed and set the table,
mummy's much happier,
and don't forget you made the maid's day brighter.

you're stuck at home,
swimming in books of chemistry,
and lots of notes of geography,
so why don't you write a poem
on what you did on this fourteenth of february?

2009-02-13T18:38:00.002+08:00

Am-I-Dumb.com - Intelligence Test

HumanForSale.com - Duck Hunt Games

on a weirder note...

you see, every morning various pretty girls
take the same train and bus as me and uh you know,
make commuting much more interesting.
so anyway, one of them took the same bus with me,
on the journey home.
and uh you know it being the day before valentines,
she had an entourage of red/pink/white balloons.
and they really caught my eye.
so i decided to sneak a peek at her name tag.

and hey presto, blog link after blog link,
i officially know her url >.<
now you see. this just pains me.

2009-02-12T20:29:00.000+08:00

it's a great song. always knew that. turns out the music video's just as good.

2009-02-10T21:25:00.001+08:00

6 Months ~ Hey Monday

You're the direction I follow to get home
When I feel like I can't go on, you tell me to go
And it's like I can't feel a thing without you around
And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees
'Cause you have that effect on me, you do

Everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

Months going strong now, and no goodbye
Unconditional, unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
You love me, I love you harder so

Everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please, give me your hands
So please, give me a lesson on how to steal, steal the heart
As fast as you stole mine, as you stole mine

Oh and everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please, give me your hands
So please, just take my hand.

2009-02-08T23:07:00.005+08:00

because i'm not going to roll the dice first anymore..
maybe lady luck's smiling at me no more,
why is it always me
that's left alone on the dance floor?

why is it me who always takes the first step?
can't you do me a favour and ask
before i do?
is it that much a task?

why do i always have to drive
and you always get the back-seat of life?
the conversation ain't light i tell you,
and yet i'm supposed to stand and piece together all the clues.

why does nothing ever happen
if i'm waiting for something to?
what's in it for me
if i go on with all there is to do?

somehow i know,
that at first waiting will be a crushing blow,
but the day you come around,
you'll lift me off the ground.

maybe i'm fed up, maybe i'm obsessed,
but i can't give no more,
'cause i've got nothing left.
forget the dance floor,
because i'm not going to roll the dice first anymore.

2009-02-07T21:57:00.003+08:00

Sometimes it's good to tie people down,
because over time, they tend to drift away;
the rainbow's gone and everything's brown,
it sure is enough to darken anyone's doorway.

Somehow somewhere along the way,
something must have happened,
maybe we just never clicked
and the fact was nothing did.

The hours spent talking at night,
tear down the bridges, we never thought they might,
amidst all the time spent,
but even our words had an end.

Love is selfish, love is blind,
you really did blow my mind;
I was a fool to be so kind,
and let her loose from the bind.

Maybe I'm still in the blue,
but I'm fine without you.

2009-02-06T22:01:00.002+08:00

i am about to talk about an extremely sensitive and sexist topic.
but then again since like almost zero females read this site,
no difference then.

what is up with you all wanting to be taller?!
like seriously?? i mean you don't have to be tall to be pretty or hot.
and it sure doesn't make a difference to your character.

is it mass media's fault? like you know actresses with long legs
and are really tall etc.. this one is a legitimate excuse (/reason),
seeing as how much pop culture and whatnot revolves around
the people in hollywood.

or maybe like your peers are real tall? but then again,
there are many whom fall under 'average height' but want to be taller.
like whathediaooo. makes no sense whatsoever.

there are many things different about the sexes, from what i've observed..
some rather hormonal, in a certain sense of the word.
but there are little things, like this example of wanting to be taller
no matter the circumstance, which just drive guys (me included) nuts.

women..

2009-02-03T21:17:00.001+08:00

i need to like study.
heh. how ironic.

hahahhahaha oh yea.
i have no idea how many times that'll happen to me again.

2009-02-02T22:34:00.001+08:00

tj cut off for entry this year is
six or below.
which means for next year, i'm fucked.

whee. great.

2009-02-01T13:35:00.002+08:00

[edit] cool skin huh! :D [/edit]

just watched dark knight AGAIN.
damn it's an awesome show..

heh and i'm supposed to be doing hw/studying.
XD

2009-01-30T19:32:00.002+08:00

Put iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Home (whathe?)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Is It Any Wonder? (hahahaha)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Greatest Day (...yea right)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Fix You ('sure hope there's more than that)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
These Walls (hmm..)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Woah Oh (maybe?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
It Ends Tonight (???)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
I Don't Wanna Be

WHAT IS 2+2?
About You Now (???)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
The Heart Never Lies

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Before It's Too Late

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Take Back The City

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
How Does It Feel

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Won't Go Home Without You

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Long Way To Go

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Five MInutes To Midnight (AWESOME!)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Say It Again

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
I'm Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend (Oh my.. LOL!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Flipside

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
The River

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Addicted To Me

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Be My Escape

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Somewhere Only We Know (hahahahaha)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Signal Fire

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Dear Maria, Count Me In (HAHAHAHAHA)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Vindicated (not really)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Don't Look Back In Anger

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Rule The World (the government, maybe)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Your Guardian Angel

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Violet Hill
_______________________________________

this was a quiz from facebook.
and the amazing thing is.
'fix you' ... like wtf.
oh wait.

2009-01-28T22:34:00.002+08:00

oh my.
i really can't write it out.

/
what the hell is wrong with me.
i don't deserve any of this,
leave me alone.
let me talk to the four walls.